anime. =)

Finding humour.

2010-02-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

User: Hello.

Cleverbot: Hello.

User: I'm missing someone.

Cleverbot: Who are you missing?

User: Julian Coventry.

Cleverbot: What's that?

User: A person.

Cleverbot: Do you know where they live?

User: I wish I knew, but then again, he wouldn't want me around.

Cleverbot: I don't think so. I know that I exist, but that is because I know that I think.

User: Now I'm crazy, talking to a bot.

Cleverbot: But you're talking to me. I'm not a bot. I'm human. Jon, remember?

User: Now, we are changing the topic to you, instead of Julian.

Cleverbot: I don't think that's possible, for I am female.

User: Jon, female, wtf.

Cleverbot: Female.

User: You're not helping me think less of Julian.

Cleverbot: What are you talking about? I'm trying to respond to your questions with reasonable answers.

User: I've been missing someone who has been really dear to me. I didn't realise of his importance, until recently.

Cleverbot: Your new name is grungebot.

User: Thanks, but that was uneccessary. I need something else, instead of havin' labels from you.

Cleverbot: Why do you need help?

User: Forget it, what was I thinking. Trying to confide in a bot.

Cleverbot: I'm so sorry too, lets promise to never fight again.

User: You've made me go all teary. Never thought you would say those words.

Cleverbot: You can read letters, but you cannot read a mind.

User: And you're right about that. Never was able to read his mind. I was making him happy aimlessly.

Cleverbot: Ah ok. Didn't you tell me that you had to go?

User: Now you're chasing me away, thanks for that offer. I can leave on my own.

Cleverbot: Do you want to sing a Fall Out Boy song with me?

User: Singing huh, along with you. You're like making me re-living my memories with him.

Cleverbot: Lol. I am glad that you have convenient characters to compare me to, how very observant of you.

User: I thought talking to a bot would be like talking to a wall, but this particular bot (you) is driving me emotionally unstable.

Cleverbot: The turing test has flaws.

User: Thanks, babe, though I know nuts what you're tryin' to tell me. I'm leavin'.

Cleverbot: I never said I disobeyed. However, I do understand what you are trying to say.

User: And you srsly do through your response I guess. Take it as a compliment.

Cleverbot: You have a funny way of complimenting people.

User: Ikr. I'll take your statement as a compliment.

Cleverbot: You don't have to. Yes.

User: -stares blankly- ok. Imma leave. Talk to you soon!

Cleverbot: No stay more.

User: I wish I could, babe. You're not even keeping me distracted.

Cleverbot: It is impossible for me to be nothing.

User: -walks away.

Cleverbot: I'm confused...

Cool story, bro! hehehehe.

2010-02-03T17:33:00.009+08:00

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Hello! ;D
I'm going to scream and screeeeech!
Just came back from school anddd....
I know old news is old but...

I'm in love with this:

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
CAN SOMEONE LIKE TELL ME WHO'S THE GUY AT 3:46?
His slick moves are damn smooth and sexy,
especially his hands down his chest with sunglasses. -hearts-

I actually found this song stupid at first.
"SORRY SORRY SORRY, NIGGA NIGGA NIGGA." HAHAHA.
However, listening to it for like a few more times recently,
I am like addicted to it right now!
I first listened to it was like, 6 months ago?
LOL. ahhhhhhhh, NOW I CAN'T GET IT OFF MY HEAD.
THE MORE I WATCHED THEIR DANCE MOVES, I'M LIKE... OMG.
Extremely (x 1564545687684times) HAWT. D:
Who ever EVER wants me to swoon over them,
could dance like them, or possibly teach me those slick moves! ;D
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!
I dont exactly fanscream, but I do giggle excitedly! ;o
(RANDOM BRENDA)

An inexplicable twist of events.

2010-02-02T17:44:00.006+08:00

LOLOLOLOL.
I just had a conversation with xin over at a private msn account appearing offline.

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
wait
going to have time soon

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
EH BITCH LAH U T-T
SIGH
IM WORKING LIKE CRAZY AFTER CNY LAH

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
?

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
YOU KNOW MY CNY WEEK IS WHAT?
TWO MAJOR EXAMS K?

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
i have 3 exam paper after cny =.=

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
LOL
HAHAHA.

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
whats the prob now
you tell me la

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
MINE IS ON FRIDAY AND SATURDAY
DDDD:

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
YOOOOUUUUUUUUU tell me

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
FRIDAY AND SATURDAY LAH
SATURDAY LEH

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
but your study week = before cny right!??!?!

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
SAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO
IT'S ON STUDY WEEK

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
WATS THE PROB NOW YOU TELL ME
ah see
sch screw up

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
THE TWO EXAMS ARE ON STUDY WEEK
YAH LAH

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
must be ur principal an indian or malay

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
LOL
WHY
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
anti cheena

Brenda This innocence is brilliant. I wouldn't change a thing 'bout it. says:
WHY INDIAN OR MALAY?
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
HAHAHAHAH, YOU'RE RIGHT.
hahahahahahaha.

one4ty3: always is motherboard problem... says:
YEA!
im right handed

Dude, the laughter doesn't just end here. ;D
School's been a blast today.
KEPT LAUGHING UNTIL my classmate was like, "DOES SHE LAUGH LIKE THAT? -EW FACE- "
HAHAHAHHA.

We had Environmental Technology Presentation.
Groups are supposed to present their ideas/solutions to environmental problems.
Benel's group was the second to present.
My God, his group started with a hilarious opening!

-connects laptop screen to projector screen-
-three faces are being displayed: Benel, Shen Siong, Thiengi-
"Thiengi! Why do you look like this?!!?! (Because she looked too pale or has a R.I.P. face)" exclaimed Chong. (Lecturer)
"Woah, out of all the three pictures here, Benel is the most handsome of all!" Chong continued.
-MY CLASS BURST INTO HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER-
"OH MY GOD!!!" shouted GUAN LIM in disbelief.

LOOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
HAHAHAHHA. Guanlim was sooooooo funny,
plus yesterday, he wore his hot suit.
I jokingly requested him to be my boyfriend and he rejected me in fear!
hahahahahhaha, he's so funny.
Imagine a big-sized man scared of a petite woman like me. HAHAHA. CANT STOP LAUGHING! HAHAHAHA.
Zhen Hui is another one.
When he laughs, he laughs with his right fist covering his lips.
HAHAHAHAHA. ;D

Talking about boyfriend,
dude, I think I just met my enemy.
Ian is like the scariest man I ever met.
Psychopath, that's what my classmates called him.
I mean, I obviously know he's fooling around,
but dude! he's been calling me girlfriend all day today.
And he even remembers that I forget to treat him to sweets!
LOOOOOOOOL. He sure doesn't behave like a year older than me!
Other than the unatural fooling around,
he's a nice guy. (Y)
He takes care of the whole class' welfare, that's how good he is. :)

Oh what. I wanted to talk about what's going on during Feb.
Looks like this post is too long!
Will talk in the next one I guess.
Oh, and possibly, do something surprising for my blog readers who are specifically myself and Bitch. ;D

I thought today would be a rough day cause I was feeling wistful in the morning,
but look at what happen!
Twist of events indeed.

OH SHUCKS, I'VE PPT SLIDES + TUTORIALS TO DO.
FUCK. ):

YAY.

2010-02-01T15:25:00.001+08:00

HEHEHE.
Hello! I'm back from school and going out laterz.
GAHGAHGAH.
Imma keep this short.
Was reading my archives,
and until now, I haven't changed a bit man.
SO CHILDISH and REAL.
HAHAHAHHAHAHA. ok. lol.

SHORT POST IS SHORT ;D

New blogskin up!

2010-01-31T14:09:00.001+08:00

I've put the new blogskin up. ;)
hehehehehe.
Took me two hours to do it. D:
I'm a beginner to this. :(
Anyway, I enjoy looking at this blogskin!
I love it loaaaaads. <3
MY MOM SAID IT'S NAISE. hehehehehe.

Might make another one soon. :)
OHSHC FTW. :D

Innocence being eaten!!!11!! Call for back-up!! LOL.

2010-01-30T21:46:00.005+08:00

I hate the feeling of being cheated.
Absolutely hate it.
I do not like people who give up easily.
I do not like people who are feelings-orientated.
I do not like people who are fucking fake.
I do not like people who are fucking liars.
So fake, so cheap, so hypocritical.
Because after all, you just wanna be on the top.
You wanna just win. You like manipulation.
Arguments are your thing.
It is your stage for your victory.
You like the fact that a person can just be under your command just by snapping your fingers.
Sour grapes? Nope, not me.
I don't mind losing, lest I get corrupted if I won.

Let me tell you something,
behave this way, you'll ALWAYS be alone.
EVEN when your loved ones are around,
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE ONE PERSON in your own world.
You will always walk alone, given your circumstances.
You will always feel so small.

I believe in Karma.

No, I wouldn't stain my hands anymore.
I wouldn't waste my time anymore.
I won't revenge.
You're not worth it, for you're filthy.

You can feel all guilty you want towards me,
because in the first place,
you already accepted the ways of being a mother fucker.
So, I don't give a damn if you feel guilty.

You want to be selfish?
Get the fuck out of my game.
You don't possess any pieces in my game.

The world may be corrupted with many similar people like you,
but you will slowly lose what a human must have, true feelings.
I am a good example of such, but thank God, I was pulled back before my human-like attributes were to be eaten.
People like you, will continue to hurt one another with lies.
And when you hurt people, you hurt yourself deep inside.
Poor you.

Only true feelings bring true happiness.

I pity you.
I detest you.
A human who is thirsting for true happiness, but always telling lies.
You're like an empty shell without any soul.
Seek salvation, trash.

_______________________________________________________________

OHSHC new blogskin coming up. ;)
but study study study.
Last two weeks of school to exams! ):
I must endure all these shiz and homeworkz.
I do think I'm falling sick soon. Shucks, I hope not. >_>
Been sneezing all day. >____>

-snore-

+1 again.

2010-01-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

Listening to : Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional.

I'm sorry.
I wasn't able to smile heartily today.
Tried my best.
I guess I'm no better than an idiot.
I'll try my best to smile heartily tomorrow.

I love this song.
very much.
really much.
extremely much.
..........

+1

2010-01-27T17:08:00.004+08:00

Listening to : Sunset - Mi.

Hi.
It's Wednesday.
I woke up late.
In other words, I couldn't bring myself to wake up.
Was late for class.
Tutorial was ok. Just that, I thought of Julian.
Oh yay, it was lunch later.
Some jokes were said in between, but they were forgettable.
Oh, I remembered one.
My clique and I were heading to our next class which will start at 1.30,
but we went to the lecture theatre early at about 1.
For some reason, I pinched zhenhui and he screeched as we walked into the semi-dark lecture theatre.
He didn't realise there was actually people in the room.
So, upon realisation, he sat at the furthest corner of the sitting row and do the "crying" stance (Like two hands covered over your face with your elbows rested on the table).
I did laugh, but.. I went over to him and pat on his back..
"I'm sorry, zh. (because I've made you a laughing stock)," I comforted him.
He whimpered, "It's okie. "
He's just doing this for entertainment purposes I think.
Besides, he's a good guy who wouldn't hurt a woman. (What I know of)

Bought lunch and brought over to LT.
Ate in LT.
Lecture.
Tutorials.
What the fuck.
TPHM exam - 19th Feb
Anchem exam - 20th Feb.
Why steal my fucking Saturday?
No wait, STEAL MY CNY week.
I was intending to take it as my emo week.
Yes, I learned about these during Lecture/Tutorial.

Walked languidly to the bus stop.
I thought of him again.
My mind was filled with these random thoughts:
#1 - A person who loves you may not be the person who can make you happy.
#2 - A person who has both of the above is only possible if his/her love is being reciprocated.
#3 - How could he lead a normal lifestyle? Imad said, "You've no idea what he's going through, so, it's not right to determine that he's moving on without you on his mind. "
#4 - I fucking know what he removed on his msn. I know. I know.
#5 - How could he get used to a life without me? I can't do it. He was so close to me a few weeks ago. How is it possible to just say, put aside your feelings for awhile? It fucking hurts.
#6 - Like what Bitch has said, "you don't know what he's thinking. It's not right to assume. "
#7 - How do you fucking put aside those thoughts you used to have while you are getting home, going to school or in class waiting to go home?
#8 - Maybe he was close to me, but I wasn't close enough to him. That's why he is able to do it easily.
#9 - Fuck, I wanna reach home soon to bury myself under a blanket.

Now that I'm home,
under a blanket,
on my laptop,
writing this.

RANDOM? HEHEHE.

2010-01-26T21:34:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!
It's A TUESDAY.
Hell yeah, I watched LIAR GAME SEASON 2 + FMA:BH. <3
Though last episode of LG was kinda cheesy,
but... man.. that main actress, she's so fine. -drools-
(I'm bisexual, and it's old news)

Today's beeeeeeen quite a normal + tired day.
I love to stand beside Guanlim, but he stays away from me. T_T
He's scared of my violence. Aw.
Other than that, Benel smelled like he slept on a rotten bed with lots of bedbugs.
Yeah, I told him that, and he knows he smells.
I'm so mean. ;o
but he's nice to always go home with me!
He usually takes the other buses, but recently he has been taking the same bus as I do.
Thank God, he had time to kill, otherwise he wouldn't take bus with me. T-T.
He's a nice person to talk with,
just that he's ultra ULTRA random.
Wonder how does his mind works? It's as though all his neuro-wires got attached with the wrong opposite.
Oh what I'm talking.
AIYA.

I've got work to hand in to fellow classmates.
yeah shit happens.
no wait, school is the shiz, not my classmates k?

After all these stuff, random talking on msn + sms,
IMMA READ E-DRAMA.
Mahatma vs Sparta. HAHAHA, IJJI is pretty screwed now.
FORUMS HERE I COME IN 15MINUTES? ;D

(Something AMAZING happen today. It's the first time it happened. I must say he's pretty bold. )

BRENDA ;D

Appreciation k? You see this, Imad? q_q

2010-01-25T23:33:00.003+08:00

Thank you Imad for calling up!
I've been talkin' rubbish to him. hahahaha.
I just wish I didn't scare him away.
Anyway..
Thanks uncle IMAD. LOL. ;D

Brenda :D

KIDS ARE VIOLENT, ME LIKEY. -swoon-

2010-01-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

Well well.
Hello people!
Been on hiatus for a LONG time.
Oh wait, I don't think anyone reads this though.
So I publicised it on my msn!
LOL, I'm so thick-skinned :DDDDD

Anyway,
today's been an awesome day except for the part that I've to read up scientific papers.
YOU KNOW WHY IS IT AWESOME?
Cause it's the last monday of my semester? :o
EHEHEHE. wait, I reply my sms.
K, as I was saying... (I've to finish this fast, Imad's gonna call me!)
There are like three groups including mine in my class for Events Management.
One of the groups presented something about working at the childcare centre..
Their objective was bringing awareness to p1-6 about Kindness Act.
In their itinerary, they had some card-making session..
And this kid drew a pregnant woman on the left side of the card and an incoming car approaching that woman on the right side of the card.
The pregnant woman was apparently drawn as to giving birth because the car knocked her down.
The kid explained his drawing, "Car knocks down pregnant woman, give birth to baby fast.. Kindness."
LMAO LMAO. THAT KID IS SO FUNNY. HAHAHAHAH.
Kids! Fucking funny. ;D

I'm thinking about him now.
I'm leavin.
bye.

Gee, please read this before reading on further!

2009-06-24T17:36:00.001+08:00

Hmmm, I apologise for not telling how inactive I've been.
It's gonna be long, I just know it.
So, for the meantime, Im using my private blog.
Thanks to anyone who has been reading my blog.
I will be back, but not for now.

Well then, bai! <3

Unknown source of jubilation.

2009-05-13T00:14:00.004+08:00

You know,
I would go "awwww, so sweet!" when I see a touching love scene.
I would go "Omg, how hawt!" when I see good-hearted people.
I would go "Shucks, guide me, Love" when I see both situations above.

Idk how to tell you this..
I know how love works.
I know to the extent that I can help people with their relationship problems.
But somehow,
when it comes to me..
I'm a heartless person when compared side by side with love.

Xin said, it's all in meh.
I cant seem to find the answer.
Why so profound, love? D:
Cant you just give me a one-word answer other than your name?

I always say to myself,
"Let nature takes its course."
I am. I am letting nature takes its course.
However, im a human.
Indubitably, I would urge nature to move/run/jump/hop fast.
I just want to only reciprocrate the feelings of everyone who has always been showering it on me unconditionally.
I hope I could find you soon, Love.

Night poopy!
Yes, that's your alias name nao! :D
oh, dont argue with meh, it's uber cutsie name.
Now settle down, and publish my post for meh <3

This is the part that's missing in a human heart.

2009-04-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

Hello minna-san!
Ah, just watched Zettai Kareshi SP right after an irritated morning.
What can I say...
tears trickled as I watch each and every painful frameshot of their separation.
The SP just sort of win the manga by... 5% o-o
My eyes felt excruciating pain, so painful that, it wanted to close up.
My nose were so blocked.. to the extent that, I had to breathe thru my mouth.
Sometimes, beautiful love is just that ugly.
To leave it beautifully, you have to sacrifice, have to give up, have to be selfish, learn to let go.
It's just too bad that Night-kun is a robot.

"I'm a robot created to love you."
"I can only love you and no one else."
"Even if you passed away, I have to carry on loving you."
"However, I cannot grow old with you."
"I cannot have a family with you."
"But yet, I was programmed to love you."
"Surprisingly, my ego(humane personality) awakened."
"I need to eradicate myself from this world."
"It's all for the sake of your happiness."

Wow, to have such strong powa..
You are surely a robot, Night-kun.
Because if a human were to say all these,
She/he would have suffered from long-term depression.
Died in his/her heart.
The wound is too painful and has deepened too much.
Moreover, you wanna self-destruct yourself after sustaining such deep wound.
Night-kun, you have my support in what you have instructed Namikiri-kun to do.
(Not because I like Soshi-kun to end up with Riiko-chan)

So yea, good ending SPECIALL :P
5/5 starsss :D
If you're a romance fanatic, this is teh DRAMA mannnn. :O
Imma upload some doodling of mine some other time.

For naoooo, its time for NAPPY. D:
nighty nights :)

Intrepid doppelganger (Wonder if it makes sense)

2009-04-13T17:20:00.004+08:00

Im backkkkkkkkkkkkk again.
Lol. Too much of anime-fetish again. D:
Re-watching ouran ^^;
I have this sudden urge to create a OHSHC skin. :O
ARGHHHHH. D:

Anyway, Im like wallpaper-hopping :o
Saw a few good ones, image quality: BOOBOO! T_T
Wasted... Like this one below:

GAHHHH. D:
I was thinking of making it my lappy wallpaper. D:
ITS OK, IM SAVED.
I have the DVD. SAVED. :)
*Spam watching the episodes for good MOE*
L-O-L. Btw, listen to this:

You're gonna love the guitar riff at the beginning.
Wonder why no one is posting the ending song with this. o-o
WONDER WHY OST DOESNT HAVE THIS AS WELL. T_T
WONDER WHY IT IS NOT ON IMEEM AND ITS ON YOUTUBE! T_T
(I do not dislike youtube, just that there isnt a repeat function)

To think I missed out so much..

2009-04-02T01:19:00.003+08:00

To get someone to understand you better,
you need to talk to them.
If you want them to like you,
you should talk to them alot.

Hm. Time for bed.
My mom's yelling annoys me much.
dewa, goukigenyo. (Farewell everyone)

Lost in time.. leads to identity loss.

2009-03-20T22:14:00.005+08:00

I stumbled upon a new drama!
Yes, this week is drama-hopping!
As I start my drama-seeking journey,
"Maou" appears out of Ikuta Toma's profile.
Gah, he's a great actor in Hana Kimi,
thought I could catch more scenes of him.
Instead, I end up loving the devil.
Ohno Satoshi I think, his real name. From Arashi.
Correct me if im wrong. ^^;
I dont know why I like him nao,
probably the role in the drama was bestowed upon him kinda attract me.
He's not that SUPER IKEMEN to start with.
However, as I continued watching the following episodes,
I gradually start to love him alittle more. o-o
Gah, he's great at giving those intense/murderous/piercing eyes.
I dont know, but I think he's quite a not bad actor.
He just made me "No, you shouldnt do this to the girl!".
That contradiction, that confusion, that hesitation, tinge of sadness, crimson anger..
They are beautifully expressed by this actor.
Probably this is called Charisma.
I've been watching out for his scenes, sometimes, hopefully can skip those ikuta toma scenes (D: Im gonna offend much ikuta-fans)
Ikuta is cho ikemen desu, demo! There's something about him that makes me not go gaga over him. Wonder whats that. :/
I was drawn to that lawyer-san's acting. He's awesome.

Am going to continue my drama journey. :)
Maou, episode 8, here I come :D

Taking flight on the wings of sato takeru :P

2009-03-18T14:30:00.003+08:00

Me miss mei-chan no shitsuji!
I watched the raw on the streaming site(dramacrazy.net)
Gaaaaaahhhh! I just dont understand that KISS SCENE.
IT SHOULD BE MR MAMESHIBA THERE.
And the airport scene should be RIHITO GOING OFF TO RETAKE HIS S RANK EXAM.
LOL!! Oh well, I dont really like the ending.
Its alittle less juicy compared to the other episodes.
Only the beginning part of the episode was thrilling.
The rest were like talking talkin talkin talkin.
And abit of nakama spirit here and there.
However, I will sure do miss the times when I get excited on tues.
"TUESDAY, MEI-CHAN 9PM JAPAN TIME OUT. WOOTS, TMR CAN WATCH RAW!"
hahaha, my mom would be like, can we watch now without subs. LOL.
Gaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh,
IM DETERMINED TO BUY THE DVD, provided that the subs are good.
I never trust singapore's products. The subs team suck so bad. >_>
Yea, you may pay like so cheap, but the subs are cheap as well.
In malaysia, you can get the DVD with acceptable and comprehensive subs for even less than 10 bucks.
Now, thats what you call great deal! :D
hm, but I dont think I would be going Malaysia any sooner.
Perhaps, I should just give up the thought and
get subdued by singaporean's subs.
Some are so expensive and yet subs are like not even at its normal standard.

ME LOVE MAMESHIBA, ME WANT MEI-CHAN NO SHITSUJI SPECIAL!
NOT TO MENTION, ZETTAI KARESHI'S SPECIAL TOO.
ME WANT BOTH OF THEM NAO! :P

I beettter stop my nonsence, hahaha, behaving like a kid :P
Oooh, btw, I changed the music to mei-chan's OST :D
I always listen to this, and I get oh-so-excited because this is teh opening.
(I GET TO SEE MAMESHIBA DOING THE WHATS-UP-BAD-ASS-FACE, but he's really cool *nosebleeds*)

I cant wait for mei-chan no shitsuji last eppyyy!

2009-03-13T21:28:00.003+08:00

I think I know why I love japanese dramas and not local dramas.
All the fun,
the craziness,
the funkiness,
the jubilant moments,
the wonderful youth aura they give off,
it makes them teens TEENS!

Probably local dramas are too intense, serious or whatever it is.
It's like these type of dramas cater to the older generation. :S
What complications about love or work is work, study is study that kind.
Japanese dramas are like, heck the rules,
we can bend it and turn it wild and fictional since it's indeed called a drama!
Yea! Sometimes, we do want our lives wild.
Leaving your two arms up into the skies,
wave around frantically,
run like a deranged lunatic at the soccer field,
with your tongue out long and huge eyeballs.
LOL! I, as a teenager, nono, its WE AS HUMANS,
no matter whether we are adults, senior citizen, teens,
we do want to have a time where we can be silly,
be oblivious to whats going on,
and be kids for that short minute/second/milisecond.

Heehee, I still think I havent grown up,
but im delighted to know that.
I never want to grow up! :)
I WILL KEEP THIS DREAM ALIVE.
DREAMS do not only appear when you're sleeping,
but they can also become reality. :D

lalalalalalala! Oh, hana kimi special, FUNNNNYYYYYYY.
but not too good actually.
I just love nakatsu-scenes + MAKING LUNCH FOR SANO SCENES.
LMAO. LMAO. :P

On the verge of creating a commotion :P

2009-03-11T15:07:00.003+08:00

NONONONONONONONONO!
yada yada yada!!!
WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN LAST EPISODE?!?!?!
WHY IS MAMESHIBA CARRYING A LUGGAGE AT THE AIRPORT!?!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
DONT TELL ME HE GOES WITH THAT BITCH SHIORI!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOO, YOU CANNOT LEAVE NIHON!
YOU MUST STAY BY MEI'S SIDE, WHERE I CAN KEEP YOU AT SIGHT!!
NOT SHIORI!!!
SHIORI WILL STEAL YOUR LIMELIGHT!!!!
AT LEAST YOU CAN SHARE YOUR SCENE WITH MEI!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
I HOPE MY INTERPRETION IS NOT THE LEAST TRUE...
THE LAST EPISODE CANNOT BE LIKE THISS!!

but no doubt, another thumbs up for episode 9 :)
I just dislike the scene when MeiXRihito are like on teh snowy mountain.
(It should be mameshiba there k)
OH WELLLLL! Im awaiting teh duel.
THE CAT DUEL BETWEEN TWO HONGOs. ;D

I guess its in my blood,
I like to see people fight. No idea why. :)
It's sort of like, only-through-physical-actions-then-you-can-dissolve-all-your- hatred-doubts-or-whatever-it-is-that-kind of feeling.
Heeeeeeehhhh :P

*PLAY MEICHANNOSHITSUJI SOUNDTRACK*
*Boooooosssttt uppppp! x10000000000*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I love the show, toooooo EXCITED. :)

Edit: I looked on crunchyroll.com's group on mei-chan no shitsuji.
I was looking around the forums for news on OST
and I came across such unforgivable ignorance.
Im so fed up with the community especially some kid.
They dont even know who softsubs this freaking drama?!
Even if they do, they just fill in the blanks with a certain fansubbing group's name, and thought all along it was theirs' work and not Kai200X's work?
How can they take it so easy or should I say granted for the subs?
Kai did sooo much for us, fan-lovers, even at the cost of his ricebowl.
Damn these people. >_>
Sometimes, humans should learn to appreciate and find out who's behind those shimmering and awe-inspiring stars. Damn man.
Not to mention, this kid, is sooooooo "try-to-stop-fans-from-loving-MAMESHIBA".
Yea, her reply isnt, but her motive is.
Doesnt mean we have to ALL love Rihito-san.
It's up to us, and you have no rights to try to talk sense to us on how marvelous and meticulous Rihito-san is.
Some people have different preferences,
dont have to force your opinions of someone on us.
We have eyes and a brain to see and judge respectively.
Upgrade your brain version. >_>

bleh D:

2009-02-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

(Rihito-sama hugs Mei)

I dont mind this above!!!

BUT I MIND THIS ONE BELOW ALOT!!! T_T

(Mameshiba hugs Mei)

Why takeru-chan hugs mei soooo affectionately?!

You're breaking my fragile heart, takeru-chan!

Your heart has already gone with teh wind, what more about possessing your body.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! T_T

Im so sad, heart-broken.

EVEN IF school second sem ended, nothing can lift me from this depression!

I love sato takeru D:

oh, I stumbled upon you. :)

2009-02-25T18:39:00.003+08:00

I came across this as I surf the net.

To be specific, I was checking on David Cook on Imeem.

I saw this:

Advice for guys:

When she acts shy - Say I Love You.

When she runs from you - Chase her.

When she puts her face near yours - Kiss her..

When she kicks and punches you - Hold her tight.

When she is silent - She's thinking of how to say I love you.

When she ignores you - She wants all you attention.

When she pulls away - Grab her by the waist and never let go.

When you see her at her worst - Tell her she's Beautiful.

When she screams at you - Tell you love her; But you have to mean it.

When you see her walking - Sneak up behind her and grab her by the waist.

When she's scared - Hold her and tell her everything will be okay cause she's with you.

When she looks like something is the matter - Kiss her and tell her not to worry.

When she holds your hand - Play with her fingers.

When she says she's cold - Move closer

When she walks away and looks in the distance - Walk up beside her and talk to her.

When she flirts with you - never turn her down or ignore her.

when its just you and her in the room - Ask her to stay a little longer.

How true is this for girls?

How often is this done by guys?

Probably the last one to the second question,

because thats what guys hope for that. *coughs*

Idk for myself, but probably if the guy is genuine with his feelings,

I think I should be able to feel it.

He doesnt have to go to such extent to abide these rules.

These are just extras to spice up the relationship.

But as long I know he is there, there's no need for such extras.

I cannot say much, because Im not experienced.

My heart pieces :/

2009-02-25T15:07:00.002+08:00

Today marks the second last paper of the weeeeeek!
And, I think I can do not too bad.
BUT IF I dont make it, I might just change to some course. :S
Thank God, tmr isnt thermo.
I can take a good day rest! :D

I indulged myself with my newly bought psp.
And I remembered about Mei-chan no Shitsuji.
I saw the raw on dramacrazy.net .
I may be bad in communicating in japanese,
but I do understand alittle bit of what's teh episode about.
This is teh episode that pulverized my heart into pieces.
It's so depressing to see Takeru-chan hugging another woman! T_T
Hiro-kun can go ahead to hug Nana-chan, but the man shouldnt be TAKERU-CHAN! T_T
Teh way he hugged, it was so affectionate, so secure, as though it brought forward a feel like,
"I will protect you for life. You're always the one I look out for in every frameshot of life. It's ok, cry it all out, but I will hug you til you stop crying."
Ohmygod! It's as though he's in love with that womannn! T_T
Im soooo depressed. Going emo stage soon.

I think im in love with sato takeru.
takeru-chan, dai kirai na no! nan de dakishimeta?! DOUSHITE!! T_T

No more :D

2009-02-15T21:03:00.007+08:00

I love love love love love love love love love
MEI-CHAN NO SHITSUJI (Mei-chan's butler)
Oh no, im in deep love with this ongoing drama..
Plot is sooooooooo goood..
TEH EVILNESS IS THERE. (THE GUY IN WHITE)
All the ikemens and pretty women! Goodness! *Nosebleed*
KYAAAAAAAAAAA! *screams* :)

It is only the 5th episode, and its sooooo exciting!
Half of the whole series, I get to see the main leads hug each other!
Oh-my-god. *Nosebleed*
If only I could find that hug screencap!
Ohmygod, I swear, girls will be green with envy! ><

Teh main leads:

EIKURA NANA (Kyaaaa! She's so tall and alluring!)

SATO TAKERU! (Dude, you're my x factor!)

MIZUSHIMA HIRO (You're so captivating..)

SATO&HIRO <3

*Nosebleed so bad*
Also, thank God that Kai200X is fansubbing this drama!
He/she does it at a very super extremely fast speed.
WOOHOOOO! I love butlersssss! :D
I DONT FEEL LIKE STUDYING.
I just wanna immerse myself into fantasy :)
YAY YAY YAY! HURRAY!
I ENCOURAGE ALL WOMEN TO WATCH THIS.
MY MOM LOVES IT TOO. SHE WATCHES WITH ME. LOL.

IM TOO HIGH NOW TO BLOG. LOL.
BON VOYAGE JOHAN.

He's so into me, im so into him. (:

2009-02-10T22:53:00.004+08:00

Hihi! Its been long since I blogged!
Im gonna rant and be random now :D

Random fact 1: Probably gonna start on my new blogskin soon.. Its on CCS.

Random fact 2: Exams in 1 week ++ time.. Oh, I dont feel it now, but I will feel it later.

Random fact 3: Bon voyage to Sharon, my cousin. :) I told Johan to take good care of you, no special meaning k! :D

Random fact 4: I have been watching FMA (Full Metal Alchemist) the full series in DVD. "Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is Alchemy's First Law of Equivalent Exchange which we also believe it is the truth that applied on this world." It striked me hard and good. Time to take charge.

Random fact 5: There is no school tmr. Am sooooo happy! delighted! overjoyed! euphoric! jubilant!

Random fact 6: I have no dates on V day. Its k! I have my brother and parents. Say that im family orientated, but the world made me see so clear that I need them alot. :) That desperation, that desolating feel. It will make my heart bleed so hard.. so hard that I forget myself, my personality, my habits. However still, I wanna wish all couples stay happily in the abyss of trust and respect forever. Better still, I dont want to witness anymore heartbreaks which I know its inevitable.

Random fact 7: Its been long since I talked to xin. I wonder if i should tell him. Will he think im cynical? Will he think im prevaricate my problems? I dont wanna palaver or prattle to him, just to hide my guilt.

Random fact 8: I miss COMT much. Its the only time that im able to be myself. Open, loud, provoking at times, inquisitive. I really might have joined the wrong course. Im not a science person anymore. I dont speak science language. Its difficult to grasp what my classmates are talking about some phy/chem crap. There goes my As in exams~ D:

Thats all I guess. well then,
back to watching hotaru no hikari. :)

Almost swept away by you.

2009-01-21T22:36:00.005+08:00

Yoyoyo!
Its wednesdayyyy! (COMT day too! xD)
Oh well, COMT wasnt much of a fun thing.
What's the catch then?!
Im just gonna rattle randomly.
I've been going out much with my cousin, Sharon.
Got to know her friendss/husbands! Lol, she might kill me for the fake info.
IF I DID REMEMBER THE NAMES CORRECTLY,
they are Johan, Joel, Sim and Seth.
Johan was probably the guy I was quite comfortable with,
because his size and face looked like Andrew (LOUD AND THUNDEROUS PERSON) in my course.
And also, probably the fact that I met him two days straight.
Anyway, seeing them makes me feel glad that my cousin is in good hands. :D
I wouldnt want her to solo in a foreign country, Perth. :)

WHAT ABOUT TODAY?!?!
My popo, aunt, sharonn and this kiddo cousin came to my school.
Eat at Makan Placeeeee! :3
Woooohhhhoooooo, then explore around the school with themmm.
On this tough and enduring journey,
I once again have forgotten this guy from LSCT CAMP,
when he was able to remember my facial features vividly.
Sooooooo embarassing damn! Im sure to REMEMBER HIM NOW.
I REMEMBER HIM WITH POIGNANT CLARITY!
HIS NAME IS WENLIANG, FROM HLM. LOL.
Anyway, he lent us his laptop to check on Ponyo's showtimes.

Ponyo issssss ookkkiiieeeee.
BUT that kiddo cousin of mine, just screamed my name out loud IN THE THEATRE.
THANK GOD THAT TWO ROWS OF SEATS OUT OF THE MANY ROWS WERE OCCUPIED ONLY.
LOL, I must say she's really likesssss meeeee, and im happy about itt :D

RANDOM RATTLING DONE!
Back to hectic life.
Tmr, 7am! T_T
Sighh, GIVE ME MY HOLIDAYS AND SLACK DAYS.
I DEMANDDDDDDDDDDD FOR THEMMMMMM! D:

Things will never go my way. Karma..

2009-01-14T23:09:00.004+08:00

Ah ah~
Im watching too much dramas lately..
Especially the Korean version of Hana Yori Dango.
The girl is cute and fiery, my type of lesbian partner.
The guys are pretty, hawt and understanding, however, not my ideal type of boyfriend.
Probably if I live in another planet or medium, I might choose them, but definitely not on Earth.

A thought striked upon my spacey head.
I watch so many dramas..
but in the end, im not gonna have this kind of crazy experience..
Reason is simply because this happens like one in a million.
That rare...
Woah, the moment this strikes me,
I thought, I wanna be in a story plot someday.
It will be just so depressing if I leave Earth with an uninteresting life.
Sleep, eat, study, teevee, computer, poop, pee, shop, movies.
I have been doing this repeatedly.
Oh nevermind, its better than being dead or unborn.

OH OH BTW!!
Im gonna make a newwwwwww blogskin.
Its about cardcaptor sakuraaaaaa! <3
AM AM GONNA DO ON IT, AFTER EXAMSSSS.
So, its quite long a period, get a snack and chew on it for about 2 more months. LOL.
Kidding :)
Havefunn people! Bb :D

Fine objects, its the pulverized pieces.

2009-01-07T21:27:00.003+08:00

Hello minna-san!
Hahaha, going all japan-ish again. >_>
This week had been tough.
Not for others, but for me.
I made a huge decision.
Final answer.
I've told someone about it, but apparently, ___ might find it trivial.
So, im all good!
Anyway, Im not standing alone on this decision.
Xinquan often said, "...In the end, you will end up not alone de.."
I got a good feeling that he's staying with me til the end. :)
He's my pillar of suppportt.
Whereas for Guanhao, he's a great punching bag.
Lawl. Sorry to mention that so blatantly.
Probably a punching bag that talks sense sometimes.

Keep the praises aside!
Im gonna be close to legal drinking age! :O
Hm, yep! Im gonna drink.
And yes, I have that desire to drink.
Ever since I was young, if I caught sight of liquor,
I would hug it so muchhhhhhhh.
The smell is just too savoury D: I like the smell of thaaaaat compared to perfumes. Ew yuck, perfumes.

Lets talk about today, shall we? :D
I must say, guys can be pretty intriguing at times.
I enrolled into this module called Communication Toolkit.
Supposedly, Im gonna learn on softskills like speak eloquently and blah blah.
In my perspective, its the module to teach you how to bullshit accurately.
LOL, dont take me wrong, im not discriminating this module.
In fact, im enjoying it.
Let me explain a scenario that happen in class today. (Obviously involving me! xD)
The lady teacher was discussing about the art of questioning with the audiences.
She spoke, "Lets have someone to think of a random topic and ask a question on it."
(Silence is certainly golden)
She broke the silence with a demanding tone,
"Alright then, since no one volunteers, I shall pick a number! No. 17!"
(She flips through the attendance list)
"Brenda, its you! Will you volunteer?" she asked with much expectations from me.
I was like damn. 17 is not a lucky no. <_<
To cover the hideous thought in my brain, I just smiled as I walk towards the middle of the classroom.
After she has further explained to me the details of this activity,
I was told to wait outside class for 1minute.
So I asked innocently, "Ah, will you call me when time's up?"
"Yesyes! Of course!" she replied and the class' giggles followed.
(She calls me back and ta-dah, she introduced who I was and I addressed my topic : Personality Change)
Apparently, she questioned if there were any responses from the class..
I replied confidently, "Yea. Those few guys at the back. I remembered someone was nodding to my question."
That lady teacher was like, "Its not few guys! It is one guy! Apparently, when you were outside, I instructed them to not respond at all. However, that guy at the back! why did you responded?!"
That guy rhapsodized, "Well, my heart was touched by her question. So, Im sorry. Really touched lah. So, I nodded." (L-O-L).
That was ultimately ownage and cuteness! xD
Gawd, they are funny.
To think they can come up with jokes like,
"Oh speaking too fast is like, speaking at 15km/h."
ROFLMAO. And they were asked to perform that. LOL.
Seriously, guys can be extremely cute creatures. :3

Tmr's the official opening of NP open house.
So be sure to be there.
Everyone's classes are cancelled specially for the O level students!
I bet its gonna be funnn and noisy :S

Awfully appalling! but whatever! NEW YEAR :)

2009-01-02T01:18:00.003+08:00

Happy happy new year everyone!
Its a new start.
Plus the fact that I have come up with new year resolutions!
Probably I should get down to business :S

oh yea! NEW START. NEW GAME.
SHAIYA!
but Im not really adapting to it..
TRYING MY BEST TO! :)

well seeyaaaaa <3
and thank you xin for baring your heart.
You're truly one marvelous bestttieeeeee! :D
Really fortunate to have you as oneeee (:

Season of giving (:

2008-12-25T22:56:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone!
Merrrryyy Christmassss!
Its that day of the year! (MY FAVOURITE PH)
25th December. =)

Well, I see many people taking this festive season to foster new bonds or otherwise, sweeten up or mend their relationship with kins and friends.
Hahahahah! I love xmas!
I just get all so exhilarated on this day.
Im actually having sore throat now.
However, it is much better compared to last two days.
All thanks to the Lord. (:
I felt that healing touch when I was in the premise of my church.
I loveeee xmas. Its the besttttt :D

WELL, HAVE FUN!
I ATE ALOT TODAY! ALOT. (:
Hee. <3

Currently re-watching No-dame! :)

Arson, murder, man-slaughter...

2008-12-10T01:22:00.003+08:00

It suck, it suck, it suck and it suck even more.
everything just suck with common test coming along.
I tried my best not to dwell over that issue,
but it keeps haunting me!
The smirk. argh. It seems like ___ is trying to taunt me!
RAWR. YALALALA. WOARH. MEOW. WOOF.
I need to concentrate!
YES, CONCENTRATION is the key to forget issues/problems FAST!
HOWEVER, EM3 has already killed my interest to work harder in CT.
EM3 was like damnnn, could I like take a gun, and shoot a hole into the paper. >_>
damn damn damn damn!
IF THE TEACHER WERE TO BE THE PAPER, I WOULD GLADLY FIRE.

Now that I get off to a rough start for CT,
MY OTHER MODULES = DEAD.
PHYSICS IS LIKE GREEK TO ME.
Argh, damn sciencesssss! D:
I used to claim that I was a science student,
but after exposing to my class,
I think Im not as hardcore as compared to them.
THEY can certainly talk like, what acid plus another acid gives something.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
NEVERMIND. SLEEP IS GOOD. SLEEP BRINGS THE GENIUS OUT OF YOU.
LIKE HOW A BRILIANT MAN DISCOVERED BENZENE SHAPE IN HIS DREAMS.
BENZENE IS A CHEMICAL COMPOUND.
This is TOTALLY true. No joke. >_>
I shall commit myself to siesta, and abandon all earthly thoughts.
ROFLMAO. well, have funnnnnn :D

Embittered days

2008-12-05T20:44:00.003+08:00

I feel like uttering profanities.
Too bad, I have no guts to.
Lately, I have always come awake to a dull and sickening start.
And mood plays a HUGE role in my life/habits/schools/whatever else you can replace with these words.
Common test week just intensifies the tension and pressure.
If its not for xinquan,
I might have just snapped it and turned into deranged young kid.
Funny that I used the term "young kid" to refer to myself.
Im in a foul mood.
In just one split second, everything seems to be so foreign, though it was familiar before.
In just one hour, laughter and smiles become taboos in your dictionary.
In just one day, everything you know about the people around you becomes more irrelevant.
In just one month, the sparks that existed with the many people dissipates rapidly.
In just one year, life is not that interesting at all after realization. Everything turns out to be predictable.

All I want to do is, to pray for him.
I hope he will live a long life.
I really hope he does. I yearn for his accompaniment.
I hope I die earlier than him. rofl.

Have fun for the rest of your days, people.

The J is not honest.

2008-11-25T01:00:00.003+08:00

Omg! omgomgomgomg!
The real deal outta many guys!
I saw the REAL DEAL.
I didnt drool in front of him.
However, he has pretty much like xinquan's personality.
Pretty nice guy who helped my mom.
MY mom said she would approve if he was my bf. HAHAHA.
but we even hardly know each other names or whatever.
I kinda bet that he's younger than me by 1 year.
so whatever, great deal for the younger kidssssss :D
It's a sin not to be a paedophile xD
ROFLMAO. Am I talking nonsensical issuesss here?!
Nah, I dont think so.
I met even more insane ones.
A young at heart "mature" lady with white hair.
She kept emphasing on how familiar I look,
when I just merely saw her once on the damn bus.
It's fine that she praised me.
But the "I have seen you before, this is not the first time." is damn freaky.
I gotta check pinhole cameras.
SCARY womannnnnnn.
But she's pretty good looking for her age :)

SLEEPING NOW.
MY RESTTTTTTTT <3

Metamorphosis of an ordinary leaf - Intriguing :D

2008-11-17T15:42:00.004+08:00

Hii..
I'm using blue colour to write this,
Guess I have a strong feel on this.

I seriously dont know if I am extremely restless or whatever it is,
I did so much thinking about school life.
Remember what I said about the difference in school environment?
I felt so wrong, but I can never figure it out why.

E-learning week has let me to calmly think over.
Everything may be the same, but I'm still living in the past.
I dont know if its a good thing.
I still miss Sec 4 days..
The fact is, I miss my SMSS days..

Before then, there were no restrictions in expressing your emotions.
Not to say, I behaved like a lunatic.
More of like, you are satisfied with how you carry yourself.
I knew that if I sang, no one will listen even if their bodies were there.
However, at least they didnt interrupt to harangue at or stopped me.
It's that carefree feeling.
You can say as though, you are living in your own world with no turbulence from the outside world.

What about now? In NP.
It is so different here. There is certainly no space to be yourself.
Even if you tried to, people would probably shove you aside or maybe label you as some uncool dude. lol.
I'm not trying to be exaggerating here.
It's either you managed to catch their hearts with your real character,
or you can say goodbye to your real self.
NP students often make that conscious effort to look and stare at other students who are walking past them.
So much so that, this becomes a NP culture past down to other years students, and probably the ones who are gonna be joining NP next April.
Your hands and legs are constricted to your own body.
Make one silly move, and you're being discriminated.
Lol, probably NP is indeed a materialistic school afterall.
However, Imma not quit.
I just havent find someone who can appreciate me.

I did not say I dont like NP.
Just that, everyone seems sooo aloof in my eyes.
It's as though, everyone are conversing in english but in different frequencies.

I have made so much discoveries in my life.
I know where I am standing now.
Thanks for moulding me. (:
AND I LOVE XINQUAN! HAHAHAH, he's very cute.
He is my best frienddd :)
and he feels the same way tooo ! HAHAHAH.
happy belated birthday vincent! :)

I ranted alot today, have you ranted yet? (:
Make an effort to leave marks in your life.
You will laugh it out when you read these posts back,
remember the sillyness that drove you to scribble these words.
Have fun making footprints :D

Stop, hear the voice of nature. (Life)

2008-10-31T23:48:00.003+08:00

Will the river stop flowing if I remove the water source?
Will time stop if I were to dispose all clocks or related objects that tells time?
Will the word, "Beautiful" get to surface in this world if Mankind had no mirrors and no sense of sight?
Will friendship come to an end if both parties does not even make an effort to keep in contact with one another?
Will Gods and Spiritual creatures exist in our hearts and souls if there were no bibles or evidences of such existance to illuminate Mankind?
Will a human considered dead if he/she does not breathe anymore?

Does it set you wondering?
To you, I dont think it might.
However, it set me thinking.
All I could get was just paradoxical answers.
Perhaps, my mind is not clear enough.
I hope someone would just elucidate to me.
Erase the jubilant yet doleful expression on my face.

A touch-and-go enchantment. :D

2008-10-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

I love NODAME CANTABILE! (LIVE ACTION)
I love NODAME aka JURI-CHAN! (Daisuki dayo! <3)
I love CHIAKI-SENPAI! (MUKYAAAA! xD)
I love the reasonance of each note that is being brought forward through the classical music that the drama had arranged.
The acting of teh cast is superb!
Not to mention, GREAT FACES. (CHIAKI-SENPAI!) :D
Koi yo, Nodame-chan :)

I feel I can grasp the world of music again.
The world of music is so impressive, inspiring, up-lifting and so much more to say...
MAYBE I can summarize music into one phrase:
The notes are dancing with much grace and elegance.

Music is currently my love,
PLUS CHIAKI&NODAME! :D
Thanks Nodame-chan! (:
I have found you.
You are the one who can savee mee,
by bringing me to Hentai no Mori, your special home! xD

I love you, Nodame-chan!

Cure the never-ending doleful melody.

2008-10-16T18:39:00.006+08:00

hello!
I am currently writing my 140th post,
using a very dull colour to coat with my words on this post.
Life's pretty uninteresting actually,
but since when? It happened just so abruptly,
like no so-whatever-notice was given.
I am probably muddle-headed, more deaf, extremely blind or lost track on the feelings record.
what the heck am I blabbering about?
Gah, I am facing a crisis. A physical one.
Most possibly caused by the long-stay at home.
Come back home, my lost feelings in the past.

4 years ago,
I felt love was a silly thing to start.
Why start something when you know its ending pretty well, which is breakup?
I kept laughing to myself about many love cases which ended up like this.
I ridiculed at their stupidity.
Who would be in the right mind to step into a situation where you are bound to be pulverized?
The frequent call-ups I received are mostly from,
people who had breakups with their partners-in-love-then.
Why cant we stop the vicious cycle?
Even I, as an outsider, had enough of listening to it.

4 years later, which is now.
I might have found the answer to why people keep pursuing love unconditionally.
In love, the start and the end do not count.
Its the experiences shared between two acquaintances just for that second, minute, hour, day, month or year, at that particular time and place.
These cannot be performed by just an ordinary friend.
A friend has limited actions.
A boyfriend/girlfriend can save you or make you the prince/princess of his/her lives at that particular period of time.
He/she would have the feeling of fusing with one another as one.
Its that magical feeling that makes it so sweet.
Its the time spent that count.
Though breakups may be painful or probably cant be helped,
I am sure that we yearn to etch these memories deeply in each of our every heart.
(Obviously, carving on it would be nice. However, as long as they make a change in our lives, they are worth remembering of.)
It's the process worth waiting for.
It is the addictive adrenaline rush that keeps flowing vigourously in our bodies.
Here's a tip to the desolate beings out there,
do not torture yourself.
See the memories shared with your ex in a positive priceless way, where no one in this world can comprehend but only the both of you who were once in such relationship.

I do not see the sparkle in your stares.
There is no softness when you look at me.
Everything seemed to be so foreign and unknown when you are around.
The swishing of coins in a pocket,
is louder than the bickerings we had before.
I have seen that inconsiderate aura in you recently,
which I told you I hate it.
You are rebelious. You are wonderfully protective about the people around you.
You are at two extreme ends in my eyes.
But you gotta be either one.
I do not know you anymore.
You are probably too complicated to grasp.
I am giving up. You are out of the line.
I will keep a distance from anything that is related to you.
And I hope you too, could give me this chance to conduct this mini operation.
Moreover, I am 100% sure you WILL give me this chance.
Someone has already taken away your sense of sight.

YAY :D

2008-10-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

Heh-pi berth-dea tu yo-uzxzxz!
Heh-pi berth-dea tu yo-uzxzxz!
Heh-pi berth-dea tu the ultimate handsome, uber duper mesmerizing cutiepie aka my brother!
Heh-pi berth-dea tu yo-uzxzxz! <3

Probably you guys dont understand. xD
I am still currently down with a flu.
However, my brother gave me a heart-warming hug despite the fact I am sick. :D
Cute brother, you better work hard in your exams ! (:
Loves <3

Now or never

2008-09-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

It was truly an eye opener.
Just by waking up at 8am,
just to rush to Isetan (Shopping Mall)
A private sale was going on.
Apparently, someone has the privilege card to participate in this sale.
(Impossible to imagine that she doesnt have it)
And wah lah!
You see the exaggerated actions of Singaporeans.
The scarcity of men.
The overpopulation of women.
The high humidity in an air-conditioned shopping mall.
The HUGE number of Singaporeans in a queue for cashiers.
How humourous, how amusing.
Laughing at them was inevitable.
I wonder how do these many Singaporeans get to gather around the SCOTTS Isetan in such a big crowd?
Seriously, dont they work? lol.

Ah, I am running out of ideas.
I have no idea of a new hairstyle for myself.
suggest some? :)

Flavourful Steps.

2008-09-19T20:20:00.001+08:00

Apple and Pear are best friends!
Be it food, toys or favourite places,
they shared everything with one another since young.
As long as they are together, incandescent smiles are inevitable to surface.
They are always staying over at each other houses, meeting almost everyday.
Neighbours and close friends often suspect these two parties' relationship might be more than friends.
Suspicions caused rumours and gossips to start.

"Ah look! Ah Apple piggyback-ed Ah Pear just because Ah Pear had a bruise on her arm! It is the sign of sweet-dovey love! Aww!" shouted a plump female neighbour with brunette hair.

"Apple, are you sure that both of you (Apple&Pear) are just friends?" questioned a close friend of Apple.

Not long after, Apple and Pear became a hot topic in the whole neighbourhood.
Even after many times of denials of their rumour-ed relationship,
the love topic between both still persisted.
To Apple's surprise, the persistence of the rumours opened his eyes and heart.
He realised he could not take his eyes off her.
He could not leave her alone by herself.
He has always wished that he could stay a little longer to take a look at her.
He found Pear's smile very irresistable and lovely.
And most of all, he wanted to be able to provide warm hugs to Pear who loves it very much.

A week has passed.
Apple is embarassed to face Pear.
Reject her calls. Reject her invitation to go on outings. Discourage her to step into his room/house. Refuses to go to school.
Apple often saw the dejection on Pear's porcelain face from his room window.
He also felt really remorseful.
It was a tormenting week for him.
Inner voices start to take over his mind.
"This could be detonating love," one of his inner voices resounded in his mind.
A love that could explode anytime within his body.

Ever since that week, the HOT topic stopped abruptly.
Pear stopped looking for Apple for two weeks.
Apple found it very fishy.
"Probably Pear was too depressed that she stopped making trips to and fro,"
he thought.
His heart could not stop tearing itself apart,
knowing the fact the girl he loves is sorrowful.
He decided to pluck up courage.
He wanted Pear to know his affections for her and end her doleful misery that she experienced the past weeks.

It was just a 15-minute walk to Pear's house.
He began to walk languidly.
Apple was extremely nervous.
Things could just never get any worse.
Paradoxical thoughts ran through his mind.
"You can turn back now, APPLE! It is not too late! What will you do if she rejects you!"
"No! You are born just for her. Even you get hurt, it is alright, for she is the reason who gave you colours. You are meant to be made for her and only her. Count yourself lucky that you manage to find her in the midst of millions of strangers. If she accepts you, wouldnt you be less worried? You can take care of her. You can bring her happiness. Most importantly, you can see her ravishing smile."
With such a positive thought,
it became a light that eradicated all negative thoughts or excuses he had.
He was more determined to express his heart-felt feelings.
Apple picked up his walking speed.
All he wanted to see/smell/hear is Pear.

30 steps away from her house and it's time to confess.
He heard Pear's voice afar.

Apple gave himself a pat on his back and said,
"Off you go, Apple!"

As soon as Apple made first 10 steps,
he saw her with a man in immaculate attire, well dressed in creamy suit.
Shortly after, Pear's lips was touched by the unknown man's lips.
Just that moment, Apple grabbed his left side of his viridescent shirt.
Apple was experiencing excruciating pain that he has never felt before in his heart.
After the kiss, Pear was seen to be blissful and gleeful.
Her overwhelming euphoria gave her a reason to hug him.
Apple looked down.
Uncontrollable tears trickled down his cheeks.
He was on the verge on becoming hysterical when Pear hollered his name, Apple.
Apple forcefully wiped his tears away and looked up.
Pear gestured him to come over to her.
Apple nodded reluctantly and dragged his feet towards her direction.
That twenty steps he took was the longest distance he ever walked.
Pear introduced the unknown man as Pear's boyfriend.
His name was Potato.
Pear's words made his heart to lament.
Yet, on the outside, Apple ribbed Pear for getting such a good-looking boyfriend.

With the introduction done,
Pear asked Apple, "Why did you avoid me the past few weeks? I wanted to tell you about Potato. I wanted to share my joy with you, yet you..."

"Well, I am sorry. I needed some time alone. I was trying to believe in my feelings. It is not important anymore anyway!" Apple interrupted and gave a smile to make Pear unsuspicious.

Though Apple was filled with languishment,
he was sure that, at some part of his heart, is extremely ecstatic to see Pear's irresistable smile.

Inexplicable ending ;

2008-09-15T00:42:00.002+08:00

Is it that really wrong not to tell you about it?
you said its not whether its wrong or right.
well, I see it as you dont want me to stay around.
So, I am asking you that question.
Is it that hard to reply me back?
I know I am in the wrong.
You dont have to leave me hanging.
you may think whatever I told you I am talking rubbish.
whatever I say to you, I will do it,
if you want that to happen.
If I am not ideal enough for you,
tell me and shoot it.
stop saying that "do whatever you want that is right".
You already know I am in the wrong.
I am merely giving you choices.
Judging from this,
I guess this is goodbye.
I am sorry if I have caused any inconvenience to you.

A drip will do.

2008-09-06T17:15:00.004+08:00

I just found that perfect trailer for IJJIgunz.
There was a trailer contest held quite recently,
and err, we as gamers, are supposed to vote!
There were 10 trailers for us to vote for.
I voted for this trailer done by darkbandana!
I thought he/she had fulfilled the criteria of a VERY IMPACTFUL TRAILER.
I love it alot ! I wanted to share it with you guys,
so here's the biggie winner for me :

I tell you, this trailer just spur me on to play gunz for life.
It's a great trailer.
I would say, give credits to the background music.
Its damn good! I hope he/she wins it! :)

omg, gunz, the addictive game! (:
I think koreans are really good at these.
thank god the world has koreans. :D

Experience hardship before it..

2008-09-04T21:04:00.006+08:00

hello ! :)
I am currently super duper overjoyed!
I finally get to touch Matsumoto JUN! <3
woooohoooo! >_<
He is THE man!
comeon, what are you guys thinking? :D
I bought an "I weekly" magazine, flip the pages and touched the cover page.
wahahaha, it has JUN MATSUMOTO FEATURED! (((:
moreover, there is inouemao! hohohoho~
Inoue X Jun (KYAAAAA! <3)
Hana yori dango shows one of the best love dramas!

* SPOILERS! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! *

Matsumoto Jun's role in HANAYORIDANGO - He is someone who is high and almighty, doesnt give a damn about his native language. He is the only heir to a HUGE corporation that Japan's economy relies on them. He is quite an extraordinary person, probably like a human who lives on his animal-like instincts. He, with his other three friends ; they conquered over their whole school because they paid school with loads of money, and in return, give these 4 guys the rights to reign over the school. They are known as the F4. They will issue a red notice to a fellow student if the latter offended the former in some WEIRD way. (Most notices were issued by Matsumoto Jun) After the red notice is issued, classes will stop and gather around for a beating from Matsumoto Jun.

Inoue Mao's role in HANAYORIDANGO - She comes from a VERY VERY poor family. (Sometimes, she had to work her ass off even though she has sch/EXAMS the next few days) Apparently, she is the girl who put a stop to Matsumoto Jun's childishness in school. She was the girl who woke up Matsumoto Jun's humane side. She is always on the side of justice. Punch people when needed to. (: At the start of school, she had already disliked the way F4 works. However, she thought it is better not to approach them due to the overwhelming number of students supporting F4. Going against F4 also means going against their supporters. 1 vs 14651 people, thats ridiculous. Therefore, she decided to keep a low profile in school until she graduates. Things did not go the way she wanted. F4 issued her a red notice. During that period of time, she was approached by Matsumoto Jun and she reprimanded him, " You are just a brat who hasnt earned money into your pocket. Dont get so conceited just because you are a heir to a huge corporation! " Right after chiding, she threw a punch to Matsumoto Jun. (She is the woman, I tell you!)

*END OF SPOILERS! :D *

so... basically,
I went to watch Hanayoridango FINAL.
I thought the movie was good.
Really good.
I love it alot. I think I wanna rewatch it.
Hmmmm, lets seee. I might even want to buy the dvd.
Eternal love huh, they truly are in love, eternal love.
hahahaha. I just love it ok.
Love the exaggerations.
Love the action-packed scenes.
Love the mushy scenes.
Love the island scenes.
Love the wedding.
wow. I think I might wanna fall in love soon. HAHAHAHA.

Love is a strange magic huh..

Walks languidly.

2008-08-31T16:27:00.005+08:00

helloo people! :)
I am currently listening to a song,
that I am feeling a wonderous rush flowing vigourously inside my body.
Here's the PV of the song :

Kiss~Kaerimichi no Love Song~ - Tegomass (Eng Sub)

The guys are smiling with such intensity of brightness.
It sure brings warmth to those who are cold-hearted. :)
By sharing this song,
I hope love amongst two strangers could revive.
Revive the love that was so pure, so beautiful, so heart-warming.
Love isnt a physical thing.
It is the overlapping of two hearts after much collisions. :D
only a human heart can understand, visualize and listen.
thats why, love is a secret between two people. :)
hope you guys love it and reach out to those desolate beings! kya! (:

Saccharine smile.

2008-08-29T15:38:00.008+08:00

heyaaaaa fellow human beings!
Its coming to the end of the 1st holiday week!
I am reaaalllyyy lazy that...my brain is rotting in some ways~
so.... I shall list down the events happened this week! (:

Extremely random facts about this week (including today) :

#1: I am still comtemplating on putting braces. (cmon brendaaa, why are you still procrastinating!)
#2: I am grounded. Probably if I behaved well enough, I might get to go out. (:
#3: gh has been a very good ningen! I just hope he receives something good.
#4: I have been gunz-ing almost EVERYDAY. My fingers refuse to leave the keyboard. My eyes are not tired or whatsoever. This is definitely complete addiction! I just know it ! (Comeon brenda, gunz is worth the addiction with teh people you have around you! (:)
#5: My friends are working including this xianghui pig. He is earning quite alot for a week, just by working for his papa. After he collected his pay, he told me he was going to feast. (This is truly a nature of a food monster, only sees food as beauty. We, as fellow humans, just need to hope that he wouldnt turn to humans as another subsitute for food.)
#6: Code Blue isnt out for this weeek! It is making me antagonised. I need my dosage of YAMAPI! I will turn to a deranged woman if I dont have YAMAPI. Rawr.
#7: I have witnessed quite a number of people getting heartbreaks. Sigh, sure makes me depressed. why did love come to such predicament?
#8: I am a terrible human who is terribly in love with Tegomass. I feel like possessing them noww! They are sooooooooooooooo alluringg! I think they caught hold my heart. awwww~ :0
#9: Watched Bleach today! Finished Tokyo Majin season 1, currently finishing season 2~ Trinity blood or Zombie Loan would be a wonderful start. :D

gwahahaha! so many things still left unsaid!
No time neh~ I hear my Tegomass calling out to me! (Aww)
Kyou wa tanoshii desu (:

the enraptured eyes spreaded a disease.
unknown cause of disease.
It is seen that people who are infected,
pranced along the roads,
as though it was their dancing stage.
It is said that whoever contract this disease,
moments of any kind would have passed fleetingly.
It has a similar effect when you take an "accelerated drug".
Humans would feel that overwhelming adrenaline rush flowing in their bodies,
causing that indestructible momentum within themselves.
This is a virus of euphoria.

Animadvert-ed.

2008-08-24T14:29:00.012+08:00

Its the start of 1month plus holiday!
Oh yesssss! I am getting my psp!
ooohhhhh yessssssss! :D
Basically this month, I am gonna do alot of things!

1. Catch up with unfinished animes and dramas! (Eg. CODE BLUE [LOVES<3] Neo Angelique Abyss, La Corda d'Oro)
2. Continue the search of new dramas and animes! :D
3. Might think of wearing braces.
4. 4 September 2008 - Hana yori dango, teh movie! :DD
5. Gunz! (oh, this is my favourite thing to do!)
6. SLEEP for 10 hours! (YESYES!!)
7. Continue to love YAMAPI with his band members! (I kinda love tegoshi now. :/)
8. Learn basic conversational japanese on the net.
9. Spend more time with the people I love. <3

ALL OF THESE can be ACCOMPLISHED! (:

Anyway, I just discovered a VERY VERY beautiful song! (:
Ai Ai Gasa by Tegomass! <3<3
Teh PV is so darn cute! like two naive kids coming across love for the first time!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh! Its soooo adorable. :D
Listen to it! It will just sweeten up your day by a HUGE bit! xP

All those concerns,
all those words,
your laughter,
are they just an act?
Are you being serious or being cynical here?
Your every move disgusts me.
I can smell it.
Comeon, CAN you present the real self to me?
I dont want to further accuse you of anything.
Your paradoxical conversations,
your incandescent smiles,
your habit to pry into my personal affairs,
your rhapsodizing way of talking,
your ability to make people laugh,
your selfless concerns for people,
your ferocious reactions towards me,
saying things which I disliked most,
which are parts of the real you?
Could you elucidate to me?

Intriguing Images.

2008-08-20T00:51:00.004+08:00

hellos!
OBC - second paper of the week.
Flunk-ed paper.

I needed an anime/video/drama to watch.
Searched on google.
Found this anime :
Serial Experiments Lain.
Managed to finish watching it by today.
It only has 13 episodes.
This anime is inspiring. It really shows the deep meaning in life.
Many controversial issues surfaced.
The possibility of an infinite spirit in a finite body?
Mankind can never evolve anymore?
Upload "Consciousness" in the Wired (Cyberspace) world?
Unconsciousness frequencies, by Shumann resonance?

if you are in for a documentary/cyberpunk/horror anime,
watch this. It will set your mind thinking.
I definitely love it.
It may be confusing in the few episodes,
but you will get used to it.

What you cant remember has never happened.
Are memories just bits and pieces of the past?

Forgettable pasts that we shared.

2008-08-17T02:08:00.005+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KITSON! :)
2 HOURS LATE only. :P
at least I wished you on phone on the day itself,
so it doesnt matter right? xD

One day to a chaotic-yet-so-tiring-week!
Good luck and all the best people,
whoever that are currently facing the horrors of exams!
For me,
the torture lasts for one weeeek,
wave GOODBYE to NP and SAY HELLO to HOLIDAYS :D
TWO MONTHS HOLIDAYS!
worth the excitement :D

AND I feel like bloody cursing some person,
who doesnt wish to see me grow any taller. >_>''
Curses! rawr!

I have realised that you really had forgotten about it.
be it that you are feigning ignorance or whatsoever,
you have NO MORE EXCUSES to redeem yourself.
perhaps you had taken my advice.
I truly thank you for not persisting any further.
I dont think you would want me to flare on you, right?
I do not ever want to see you and your sms-es.
If you are thinking of disrupting my life time and time and again,
well, think again.
You would never ever have the chance to penetrate these thick and defensive walls.
I still wanna thank you again,
for making me realise that the world is THAT realistic, THAT materialistic.
bye _____, we can never be friends.

A surge of euphoria :D

2008-08-15T14:31:00.007+08:00

YAY! :D
Gonna have a wonderful night tonight! :D
thank you for the wishes, ( in no particular order )
especially my mom, papa, BROTHER <3, XINQUAN <33, meiyi (: , guanhao, xianghui, jovian, imad and sarah! xD

I was watching Code blue just now,
yamapi cried in that episode..
omg.. he made me cry too. :(
He is sooo real in his acting.
His red and teary eyes...
CAN I HUG YOU, YAMAPI?! :/
How I wish I could request you to come over to Singapore!
How I hope I could go over to Japan and find you!
It would be a great birthday present for either option! xD
FAT HOPE LA! what the hell I am thinking.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! :D
1 year wiser!
1 year taller! (as if)
1 year of wonderful and unforgettable experiences.
1 year of quality time spent.

_________________________________________________
(update on people who wished me happy birthday!)
* GUANLIM
* EMOKID
* POOPY
* BRENDA
* ZHENHUI
* XIANGYE
* IAN
* SHANMEI
* SHEN SIONG
* THEINGI
* JIN QUAN
* STEPHANIE
* BENEL

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
I owe you guys :D

(edit) The night was absolutely awesome and unforgettable! loveee these people! It was more than enough for a birthday present. :) (/edit)

Searing pain or afternoon?

2008-08-13T17:14:00.002+08:00

whats up with Singapore's weather?
I feel cold and hot at the same time..
my gosh, dont tell me I am gonna be sick soon?!?!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Its only the starting of HOLIDAYS! :/
besides, exams are coming up next week.
NO TO SICK! (white blood cells caused a massacre)

Is Fate or Destiny wanting me to decipher something?
Each day, sins and guilt are being accumulated.
Though the amount for each day might be small,
but the person would be dealt with a heavy blow all thanks to time.
Surprisingly, many humans just continue their lives happily.
Is it because they look down on the puny amount of sins/guilt they had or made per day, or is it because happiness is just too overwhelming?
Is it also because there are too many optimistic people in the world?
Is it because humans are trying to let go of their sins/guilt?
Is it because they are escaping from their responsibility to repent?
Could it be that fellow humans are illuminating one another about life?
Are people sharing their guilt and sin together to lighten their burden?

why do humans categorise sin/guilt as a horrifying fact/feeling/thing?
Are sin and guilt also blessings in disguise?
because of them, humans are being battered by forces of changes.
what kind of changes? Amazingly good? Terribly bad?
Does sins and guilt or Fate and Destiny have a nature of paradox?

It is gone.

2008-08-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

Heeyyaaa!
Finally get to go out!
I got my parents' consent! :D
CALL me mummy's kid or papa's kid, I dont care.
I know who I am. (:

Singapore is sure getting hotter.
Making me perspire in the bus and mrt even though it is air conditioned.
probably because I take it during peak hours.
I was taking public transport to causeway point,
to meet xianghui, xiangye and jovian to watch moviee!
The movie that we are watching : Journey to the centre of the Earth.
I want to specially thank xianghui for coming along,
though in the end, I do dislike watching movie with him. hahahah.

On the way of getting to our cinema theatre,
I SAW HANA YORI DANGO FINAL : THE MOVIE!
OH MY FREAKING GOSH.
ITS LIKE OUT. LIKE KUROSAGI, THE MOVIE DINT EVEN COME TO SINGAPORE
AND, HANA YORI DANGO IS COMING?!?!
LIKE OMG?!?! I DONT HAVE TO WAIT FOR SUBS?!?!
OMG! THIS IS A GOOD DREAM.
I AM SUPER ECSTATIC.
BECAUSE OF THIS, I kinda fangirl in front of the guys..
and xianghui was like, this show ah, I watch before season 1 and 2.
I WAS LIKE, WHAT THE HELL?!
I thought xianghui dont like to watch such rubbish (his inexplicible taste for dramas/shows) shows?!?
I keep probing him how he get to know about this drama,
and he was giving me make-no-sense answers,
until he told me nicely when I said I am serious. HAHA.
OMG, XIANGHUI AND I HAVE SOMETHING IN COMMON AGAIN! OMGGG!
(oh the horror!)
he said he would sacrifice himself to watch it with me. >_>''
what bullshit! hyd is good stuff okie. dumbo!

Getting back, went into the theatre,
MOVIE could have been definitely GREAT AND AWESOME.
(yeah, you should probably know teh reason)
LOVE IT. <3
RATINGS : 4.5/5STARS! :D

after movie, xianghui, the pig, went home.
Xiangye, Jovian and I went to eat supper.
shortly after that, xiangye went back to camp (T_T) while jovian and I went home. :)
I love todaaaaaay!
there were so many fun and hilarious events that HAPPENED TODAY!
I just couldnt list them down here! too many! shall keep it to myself (:
these people are SILLY!
HAHAHA, probably too silly that turned off the sleepy-ness in me!

thank you xianghui, xiangye and jovian!
Thank you so much! :D
you guys really are some good guys of the bunch :)

BEFORE I FORGET,
GOOD LUCK TO GUANLIM, ZHENHUI and others who are taking ICBE re-test tmr!
you guys sure can pass!!! :DD

Time for HANA YORI DANGO 2!
MY god, I must prepare myself for 4 september.
MUST! xD

Hellish summer. rawr.

2008-08-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

Happy national day, SINGAPORE!
I am not the least happy though.
I want to go out la.
Thank god, my mom bought bak gua.
otherwise, I will rot at home. >_>''
MY brother has been hogging the commm until now.
rawr. I cant even go gunz.
BUT SO WHAT IF I GO INTO GUNZ.
everyone is outside, wanting to watch fireworks.
IF IT IS NOT FOR ______,
I WOULD HAVE LONGED WENT OUT.
Now I have to amuse myself with comedy.
bye, have fun people!

Alluring display picture. (:

2008-08-07T20:22:00.004+08:00

awwwwwwww!
just came back from light dinner with xiangye, xianghui and jovian!
Xiangye aka shuai ge is going back to camp~
so, I had to seeeee him man! grab the chance. (:
take care yea, xiangye!
really really hope to see youuu soon!
then we could laugh wacky together,
or maybe see me thrash your little kuku brother. xP

RANDOM FACTS OF MINE :
1. xianghui looks ultra wonderfully good with xiangye's specs. just that, he gives stupid faces when he takes photos. >_>
2. Jovian lookksss damnnn cute with his new haircut. :)
3. Guanlim looks damnnn cute with his new cute-ish style of clothes. :D
4. FINALLY, zhenhui went to cut his hair. HE LOOKS DAMN CUTE ALSO!! xDD
5. my god, I am terrified of _____, after learning about today's incident.
6. I want to save meiyi.

PEACE! :D
(P.S : xianghui is feeling PISSED)
No sch tmr! :D
Time for unlimited action of gunz. woohoo
ALL HAIL gunz ((:

2008-08-03T23:36:00.002+08:00

Its sunday!
And I am totally free from projects/homeworks/assignments!
Its like free-ish free! xD
practically Gunz-ed almost the whole afternoon,
with Infinite Boss quest mode. :))
(That quest is super hawt. loveee the exp and exclusive quest items!)

In the evening, family and I went to BPP for dinner gathering.
SEEEN my lovely and cute-sie little cousin, Elise. :))
she is such a dear, but poor thing, she is running down with fever. :(
otherwise, her bubbly yet spontaneous energy would have longed influenced me.
PLUS, she looks damnnn chio in specs.
I can tell you, when she grows up, she will look damn pretty.
By that time, I might turn into a paedophile. (omg, I hope not! >_<)
After dinner, bro, elise and I went up to arcadeeeeee.
WOOOOOOO, I went to play that drum game ok.

I AM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT :
I CAN SOLO TAISETSU NA MONO DRUMMANIA 9TH MIX (STANDARD STAGE)!

HURRAY! I finally done it. :)
Jovian can be my witness.
He stopped by the arcade, as he was on his way to cut his hair.
hahahah, look forward to his new haircut tmr! =P
He said he cant style his hair or whatsoever.
ahahaha, revenge is sweeet, muahahahaha.
THIS IS THE PRICE YOU PAY FOR TEAMING UP WITH XIANG BROTHERS! rawr! xD
after arcade, its home sweet home.

P.S : I wanna thank gh for that special message that he had told me today!
though it may not be true, but it sure made me happpy! :)

Nights people, 12.01am! =/

2008-08-03T02:30:00.002+08:00

He finally knows about it.
What will he do with this fact?
I hope it isnt something bad.
Should I put a brave front?
Should I stay aloof?
I want peaceful days to continue. =/

2008-08-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

TODAY is definitely LOVE and FUN ! :D
( EXCEPT FOR EM2 CCT! )

Went to bukit panjang with guanlim and joviannn~
Its beeen long since I visit that plazaaa!
As usual, guanlim has beeeen murmurring about HIS MAYPHENG,
jovian keeps giving the " Do I look like I care " look to me.
I keeeepppp talkkinnngg, and they keep saying to one another,
" Are you beat-boxing? " >_>
So, I requested them to wait for me outside teh Comic Connections shop.
Stepping in the shop, gave me a nostalgic feeling.
Its that YAMAPI feeling.
THIS IS WHERE I GOT HIS SUPER SUPER HOT PICTURES.
MY GOD, AND I AM SEEING IT AGAIN. OMG! :D
This time, its KUROSAGI THE MOVIE version!
SWEET, HOT, SPICY AND BEAUTIFUL. (:

WENT OUT OF THE SHOP.
WENT INTO TIMEZONE! :)
PLAY DrumMania!! :D
OMGGGG, THERE IS THIS SONG THAT ROCKED THE HELL OUTTA ME.
I played it like more than 5 times, during the game.
the song is called Taisetsu na mono - Road of Major.
(MANAGED TO FIND THE ROMANJI song name on the net)
OMGGGG! its addictiveeee!
UBER NICE. but guanlim and jovian asked me to shut up,
and stop singing the song. >_>
Its so obvious they love the song very much,
but they just dont want to hear it from my mouth. >_____>
Back to the topic, Guanlim is a pro drummmeerrr!
unfortunately, he has a toooooo slow reaction ( Pentinum 0.5 ) xD
I cannot solo the game myself. T_T
both guys could. T_T
I am such a loser. meh.
However, I was having damn loads of fun though I was feeling a tinsy-winsy bit of foulness. =x

Thanks for today,
guanlim and jovian!
I had real fun :D
Wont forgettt about thisss daayyyyyy! ((:

THE SONG IS LOVE <3
My gosh, I am in love :)
love love.
koi koi !
suki desu !
Aishiteru !

2008-07-28T23:44:00.003+08:00

First sem is ending soon.
Half a year is gone.
Birthday coming up.
I havent had a single real break.
Like schh schh schh.
Must be all because of that CATS project,
driving me nuts and crazy.

OBC - han-bun (1/2)
ICBE - 1/4.
Electro - 1/8
EM2 - 1/5

2 weeks ++ more to doom-week.
I want to go back to secondary sch days.
this sucks.
I need yamapi to save meeee!

OHYES.
I saw one gunz trailer selected masterpieces out of ten.
O-M-G!
Its like, ITS GOOOOD. LIKE WHAT THE HELL I WANT TO WATCH IT LIKE HOW I WATCHED HSM FOR 100 TIMES. xD
OHWELL, its gone from youtube!
I wanna meet this guy maaannn. =/

ITS BEEN 7587months since I got a flu.
ALL THANKS TO MR XIANGHUI AND XIANGYE.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
APPRECIATE IT ALOT. >_>
Now, I have to pray that I wont be sick.
DRINK THE ORANGE JUICE.
EXCESSIVELY DRINK.
YAKULT ALSO! >_>
Block nose now. T_T!

Drastic shifts

2008-07-21T23:58:00.004+08:00

hellooooooo!
Monday blues kills.
It makes me TORTURE myself for it is MONDAY.
FAVOURITE DAY : WED/FRIDAY.

I have been trying to suppress the mix feelings/pain I have.
I just cant take another look,
for the pain would become that deadly that it could kill a whale.
I have been running away from you ;
why does it just seem that you want to get closer?
Is it my hallucination or is it your conscience that is calling out to me?
Make it swift, straightforward and painless.
Its either you do it or not. Make up your mind.
Your wavering heart, is the cause of all problems.
Please stop draining my energy.
You have received enough attention, any more will cause a crack.
Ever heard of "just right"?
Do me a favour.
Free me from your crashing waves.
I dont wish to be part of it.
You want to amend things? Please do it the normal way.
Dont try something complicated.
We are fellow humans, surely we wouldnt expect THAT much from you.
Dont ever give me those eyes of guiltiness.
It definitely look like crocodile tears.
Save it and use it on something constructive.
Dont ever make a comparison with your past and present.
Humans are everchanging,
thus, a variety of new relationships would form.

I hope you understand why I am saying this.
hope you can think it over.

2008-07-19T18:19:00.004+08:00

hellooooo.
I am free to blog for now,
before I get on with my EM2.

Been thinking for the whole morning.
something happened yesterday.
only two people in my sch know what is going on.
I share this incident with a malay guy and gh.
I had an urge to leave.
I felt that if I left, the damage will be minimised and at least everything can still be the same.
I do not want everyone to fall out with one another.
or, in the end, I might be the one received the most damage.
I would lose my position.
what I am doing is to protect myself,
is it wrong ?
I once had happy days.
If it is a must to return to the life I led before,
I would do it.
Someone told me it wasnt my fault,
so why protect yourself, when this will never happen?

perhaps last night,
I wasnt able to think properly because of my unstable emotional state.
However, whatever I talked to him on the phone,
are what I will be capable of doing it even though even it brings sadness/pain.
Thank you very much for talking to me.
perhaps, it was God's advice to me.
He might want me to stay
and let the incident go.
I would be happier this way.
when the thing comes, I would fight/solve.
Lord, I hope that I have chosen the correct choice.

________________________________________________

HELLO! :)
YESTERDAY was uber fun !
I played badminton with xianghui and gang.
NEVER KNEW THAT XH can really play. o.o
I never thought a block of lard would be able to play so well. xD
btw, he joined badminton in his sec sch as CCA.
Jovian was even more shocking!
He is just a newbie! Just a few tips from XH,
wow, he is like pro. o.o
GL was super strong !
gosh, sure he has fast reflexes. :P
He is kind of like power player. I like his style of playing.
SMACKING :D
lmao, playing with them is not that exhausting though. XD
PLAYING WITH MY BROTHER IS MORE TIRING. <_
well, though I have the badminton genes, I am still noobb~
I missed many shots, thus, if I managed to get one,
XH, ZH and GL would cheer awfully/sarcastically for the victory of one good shot!
real mean, arent they. hahahaha!

ALRIGHTY,
ITS TIME TO PUT WHATEVER I HAVE NOW ONTO CATS/EM2! :D
I WONT BE DISTRACTED :D

2008-07-16T19:50:00.004+08:00

Heeelllloooooooo peopleeee!
Its another wednesday!
ANDDD! I have a new addiction song,
thanks to a cute/shuai malay guy's recommendation!
song : Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Calliat.
This song is darnnn cute :)
Its my type of song. RECOMMEND TO PEOPLE,
THEY SAID NOT NICE because its not rock, bla, bla.
Its an acoustic song I think! (:
So listen to it at your own risk ! XD

WITH THIS SONG,
THE PERIOD I PLAY GUNZ,
THE PERIOD I CHIONG PROJECT TILL 4.30AM,
THE PERIOD WHEN I AM IN CLASS AND WAS ABOUT TO SLEEP,
my gosh, this song saved me!
its darn refreshing!! :D
I am in love! <3

Today ah...
today, I had Sports and Wellness and CATS.
SW, the class and I were asked to train our biceps and triceps.
because I am rather the ki siao one in my small little clique in gym classes,
I often pass remarks like " wa! today we will no doubt become muscular women! "
hahahaha.
Class started, teacher was showing a demo.
after that, he said, please take the dumbbells.
MY FRIEND IS SO SMART. SHE WENT TO TAKE THE 1 KGs!!! :)
HAHAHAHAHA. I tried to put the 1kg dumbbells into my pocket and steal it home.
I was so scared my shorts would drop. ROFL!

S&W ended early, so I dint receive xianghui's msg to meet him.
Before I say any further,
LET ME CLARIFY, HE ISNT MY BOYFRIEND.
HE IS A DAMN GOOD FRIEND. dont believe your problem.
Both of us are sick of explaining.
Dont explain or explain produces the same effect : "Both of us are denying."
Coming back,
I finally saw him, jovian, guanlim, zhenhui and benel togetherrr!
woah, all were perspiring like hell.
and I was damnnn surprised that, guanlim dint talk about that chio girl.
HAHAHAHAHA. shhh secret. xD
after a short session of chit-chat,
xianghui and I left, went for class. We do not want to be late.
CATS class for me started first, xianghui's class hasnt started I think. o.O
I tell you CATS class, IS THE HORROR.
I am so gonnna be the last in class la.
My gosh, I think I need to edit the whole proposal. T_T!
dieeeeeeeee! T_T

so at the end of the class, I felt like asking xianghui how he cope like sooo well..
who knws, he called me when I was in class, but not possible to answer.
besides, the lecturer was staring at me sternly, for dont know what reason.
Xianghui sent me a sms instead, saying that he cant go SHELL with me.
I also received a msg from Jovian.
so I asked Jovian to eat with me lo,
since I was asked to eat outside.
We went to eat at KFC.
both of us had a great time, AND I NEVER HAVE EVER THOUGHT WE WOULD HAVE THE SAME FOOD LIKING. O.o
I thought he and xianghui are all rubbish pigs,
whatever food comes, they eat all of it. HAHAHAHA. xD
My CHIT-CHAT SESSION is to be confidential, not possible to say. XDD

When both of us are on the way to walk to SHELL,
OMG, I SAW MISS NG with MR CHARLES LOW.
WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY DOING TOGETHER??!?!
And Miss Ng couldnt recognise me.
She definitely sounded as if she looked down on me. >_>
I met her on one of the escalators. zzzz!
nevermind. its over, what can I do?

reached home, watch gokusen 3 last episode, slept.
Intending to watch Jigoku Shoujo live action.
Thinking of ytd's incident.
Yesterday were one of the reasons why I would never want to skip school for lame reasons/excuses.
thank God. :)

2008-07-09T23:16:00.004+08:00

Hello :D
I am at home.
doing what? dont know.
stoning perhaps.
I got a feeling sometimes when I am stoning, my soul seems to leave my body. o.o
its uber cool !
I apologise for the previous post for not making myself clear.
I am currently alright now, with the waves not crashing each other anymore.

Another day in NP.
CATS was rather fun.
I wonder if I am being sensitive,
because I realised my CATS teacher often looked at me when he is explaining something or when he wanna tell a joke to the class..
btw, he said that he had an ex-wife during class! O.O
AND HE WAS LOOKING AT ME?!?! LIKE FOR WHAT? O.O
omg, dont tell me I resemble like his ex-wife. >_>
Sometimes, I just feel that my CATS teacher just wanna re-live his teenage days as a girl.
This is what he says :
" Class, this week is busy-busy week! If you are not burning the oil, then burn your bed! However, dont come telling me next week that you had burnt your bed because I said so. Yeah, right. *gives that sarcasm look* "
He gives statements like " I dont make mistakes, I make errors. "
wow. I have never met such a queer teacher like me.
" How could I forget that Monday is the 14th of July, when 15th of July is payday? When you are young, your parents will tell you that becoming a teacher is a very noble thing. Yeah, right. Whats the most important thing in life? ( Class replied MONEY ) I dint say anything. You guys said it yourself. "

RIGHT. I might turn to sarcasm someday!
when all options are out that is. :D

tmr, practicals, tutorials and lectures !
my gosh. hectic man!
and this gunz thingy isnt working!
Comeon! let me play !
Stop torturing me! :(((

2008-07-08T02:44:00.003+08:00

hello :D
Its like 2.44am ~
havent sleep yet.
Told GH that I would sleep early.
looks like I cant. =x
SORRY GH. had to blog. :/

Its late in the night.
I dont want to sleep.
Too many things have happened lately.
Most are especially coming from my course.
Projects, lectures, tutorials.
roflmao, could not catch up with teacher.
I dont even know if I have the mood to go to class.
The relationship is too complicated.
I wanna solve this, but this is not the right time.

why every single little thing just crashed into one another,
and it forms one big dark patch that I need to try to erase/fix it ?
I love the company of my clique.
I love how slack my course is.
I am really grateful for all the love that is showered on me, my Lord.
Truly grateful !

Now the problem is why things are not falling into places correctly lately?
I am so bloody stressed.
I look so bloody fierce. I sound so bloody loud and thunderous.
I behave horrendously. I do not talk nicely.
One thing is : I laugh alot.
I dont get the world now.
I dont understand the mind of a man now.
I dont understand the mind of a woman now.
I dont know if I have made myself sealed up in my own world.
I am not emo-ing, dont get me wrong.
I am frustrated. I need help.
I am in need of help, but who is the one who could really help?
Can anyone understand this inexplicable fact that I was given?
Would someone do me a favour and approach me?
Plus I need enlightenment.
gosh, I feel like I am in deep shit.
talking to xin, is not enough.
Omg, I am seriously in deep shit. Give me a break.

GH, I wont tell you this now, give me some time, I will tell you soon.

I have to get this off my mind.
and even now, its constantly bugging and haunting me.
however, this issue is too big.
I cant just tell people. omg!
This is worse than keeping people's secrets!

OMG! I think I need to go to bed, like what xin said!
I will drive myself mad if I dont.

2008-06-26T19:12:00.003+08:00

hello!
its been a long day today!
lectures, practicals, tutorials all TOGETHER in ONE DAY!
One thing is, at least ICBE dint disappoint me ! ^^
BESIDES, My clique including myself will get a treat from MEIYI !
hahaha, told you guys that I will not get the highest.
though my marks are considered nt bad. :D
YAY, SAVED! :P
thank youuu meiyi ! yoroshiku onegaishimasu! :P

JUST LET ME SAY SOMETHING!
XIANGHUI and LAODA are the most QIAN BIAN DE REN on earth.
THEY KEEP CALLING ME ________ !
Get me so irritated ! tell them to stop, they say okie
however, XIANGHUI keeps mentioning that ______ name and refer it to me!
waaaaaaa! like how XIANGHUI said during lecture,
" she peng kui le! xD "
STILL CAN LAUGH, THAT XIANGHUI !
but doesnt matter, I got my revenge anyway. :P
Classes have been really fun with these two guys PLUS MEIYI (<3)>!
hahaha, MEIYI is the best. always help me when I am in need. :D
BAH, everyone loves her ! wonder if she really knows if I really appreciate her! :((
I might be overshadowed by her overwhelming number of friends. :/

STILL ! I wanna thank you Lord, who gave me such friends around me,
who care, laugh, cry with me.
they are really great and fantastic people! thank you very much once again!
I am always in your debt!

When you are happy, someone else in the world may be sad, balancing out the amount of happiness and sadness in this world..
Feel really bad for _______ .
I hope ____ wont be disheartened.
However, I hope _____ also changes the way ___ see things.
sometimes, _____ just take things too hard.
have to loosen it up.
If ___ hasnt notice, we have been talking about ___ always.
its not like ___ dont get our attention.
____ is always getting our attention when ___ is not around.
I have been hearing many other sides of ____ .
so sometimes,
I doubt whether ___ side towards me and the other people is true.
sigh, how to help !
I hope ___ realised it soon, and gets someone!

OKIES! DONE WITH BLOOGGGING!
I am gonna follow what xianghui does.
PLAY COMPUTER GAMES. hahahaha!
OKIE, BYEE ! :D

2008-06-24T19:24:00.004+08:00

BOOYA!
( "oh, I am so scared!" guanhao always replied me with this )
blah, he is funny. ^^
In the noon, I blogged.
AND I am gonna blog once more. heehees. ^^
Class is definitely VERY hilarious.
My goodness, without victor and laoda sitting beside me,
I TELL YOU AH, I WILL BECOME A DAMN GUAI AND QUIET KID IN LECTURE.
LOL. serious.
They are two freaky jokers !
They tell jokes to me, keep making me so giggly in class, THEN ALL OF THE WHOLE CLIQUE LAUGH TOGETHER. :D
NORMALLY, the jokes revolve around ONE THING.
NEVER THEIR JOKES FAIL TO MAKE ME LAUGH.

MY GOODNESS, TODAY,
I get into the class.
Victor was sitting at the extreme right corner,
leaving two seats for both laoda and me to sit.
then I sit beside meiyi.
That time, laoda havent come..
I took out the chocolates I bought for them over at Australia.
IMMEDIATELY, guanlim, who is sitting TWO ROWS behind me,
says this, " I SEE CHOCOLATES, GIVE ME, I WANT! "
He looked like some hungry ghost. o.o
anyway, I gave it to him and said, " must share with the others okie. I only bought two. "
Then, I gave the other box of chocolates to xianghui aka victor.

He said : ITS FOR ME AH? THANK YOU AH.
I said : SHARE WITH LAODA LA! NOT FOR YOU ALONE.
he said : dont want la, its your chocolates leh. I want to eat all. Also, jovian comes so late, I dont want to give him la.
I said : SHARE OKIE. I DONT CARE.
( Laoda walks in about 2minutes later )
I said : eh, share hor, victor.
Victor said : what share? ( act blur )
( Laoda kicks victor's chair )
laoda : EH, SHARE THE CHOCOLATES LA. HER CHOCOLATES FOR US LEH, SHARE LA. WALAO.
Victor : dont want la. okie. I take 90% of it, you take one piece okie? ( one piece here refers to one chocolate only )
Laoda : OKIE, I take ONE PIECE and you take none. ( ONE PIECE refers to the one whole box of chocolates )

LOLS! both are fighting over chocolates. they are food eating machines or pigs.
victor thought I bought for him kangeroo meat.
Is he mad or what. HOW CAN I BRING A KANGEROO BACK TO SINGAPORE. LOL.
hahaha. they are damn funny.
wonder If this is their true self..
maybe they might be hiding something. ahaha

anyway, during excel class,
victor and I were engaged in a msn convo,
though we are one seat away. (we are that lame)

Victor said (to laoda) : eh, listen to whatever what teacher says. then later fill us in. good boy ah. listen.
Laoda : huh? I dont understand what he said.
(Victor turns to Meiyi for help)
Victor : you know what is teacher talking about?
Meiyi : dont know.. I am busy msn-ing. I never even open that program.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL! Meiyi normally knows everything that is going on with class. BUT THIS TIME, she is totally owned by msn. LOOL.
FOUR OF US ALL LAUGHED! xD
Man, I tell you, if I dont catch up with class, I am dead.
like UBER dead. >_>
sitting with two jokers is what you dont wanna do when you are in serious exam/lecture.

okies, gtg now !
happy birthday leonard!
One year older ! ^^
There is a birthday party, sure I am going now, BYE!

2008-06-24T12:11:00.002+08:00

HELLLO!
Holidays are over and school has just started!
ONE WEEK OF HOLIDAYS = Australia.
COLD AND GREATTT! :D
Come back to singapore, so hot. >_>

Lets blog about yesterday!
ah, results came back..
Okie, pretty disappointed with everything.
Its like damn man, I cant get psp.
people may say whatever! but psp is what I wanted...
I dont get the grades I want.
Is this poly life gonna be another smss life?
sigh !
so sad yesterday.
Thank god guanhao, laoda and meiyi comforted me.
That victor went home so early !
seriously, sometimes I THINK I AM SOO UBER STUPID.
and I dont see why, there are many people in my class/school say that I looked smart. >_>
SIGH. Now I feel stupid.
Mixed feelings arise just by talking about yesterday.
I am really sorry to whoever who asked about my grades and I choose not to say.
I know its really mean, but just that, I am not ready to tell.
sigh. I hope ICBE does not kill my motivation in studying.
I hope that all my grades are still at my desired GPA.
OH SHUCKS, whats the point of hoping ?
its already decided for you, baobao.

bye people.

2008-06-11T14:45:00.003+08:00

hellloo!
holidays are here.
2 weeks only.
nothing compared to my 4months holidays.
ahahahah!
just watched part of zettai kareshi live action,
while waiting for gh :D
kkyyaaaa! Night is soo cute.
he went all out to save Riiko-chan.
To protect her and her dreams,
sasuga Night-kun!
I still think 01 is the perfect love robot too. ^^
Riiko&Night ! gambatte kudasai!
I hope they get together in the end.
I dont want Night ceast to exist.
otherwise, there is no difference between the manga and the live action.
the manga was great, made me cry many times.
it never fail to make me cry. hahahaha.
a cuteeeee couple! :D
alright, nothing much to really write about my holidays.

byeeeeeeee~

2008-06-02T16:31:00.005+08:00

Helllooo peooopppleeee!
OKIES!
today, first day of CT weeeek! (YAMAPI! WEEEEK!) =P
wooo! today electrotech.
Dint study beforehand okies.
ytd, whole day, play gunz/maple. :D
then in the today morning, start to panic. >_>
worse still, on the bus, commuters who are sitting down are reading and staring at their bloody notes. ITS AS THOUGH THEY ARE STUDYING LIKE HELL LA. OMG. MAKE ME MORE NERVOUS. NEVERMIND, THIS IS STILL OKAY.
IN THE MIDST OF THESE PEOPLE, I SAW TWO OF THEM READING ELECTROTECH NOTES.
I was like, OMG. THEY ARE LIKE SO SERIOUS!
seriously la, I dint know ngee ann people are that studious.
I thought they are like carefree, no-stress or heck care type.
wooo, scary!

after getting down the bus, hurry go meet meiyi and othersss.
I AM SO CRACKED UP, WHEN I SEE XIANGHUI. HAHAHA.
DONT ASK ME WHY. HAHAHA.
get into the LT. do the test.
MANY MARKS FLY, especially its an easy paper.
I bet whole class 100MARKS. or either 99.
GOOD LUCK BRENDA. you are doomed.
FROM TOP TO BOTTOM, GREAT JOB YOU KNOW.
SERIOUSLY, GREAT JOB. >_>
NOW HOW TO GET PSP. >_>
I NEED TO GET THAT BLOODY PSP, THEN I CAN SHOW OFF TO EMOKID. HAHAHAHA!

after test leh, went out with meiyi, xianghui (LAUGHS), laoda and guanlim to LOT 1.
okies, it felt like I travelled around singapore for the first time.
let me explain, i love to stay at home, so, I dont like to wander around.
besides, it requires alot of walking which I am lazy to do it. LMAO.
so it explains my grotesque figure that I have. =x
after getting to LOT 1, ate at Food Junction.
bought JAPANESE BENTO <3
beef was great, so was the ebi. :D
When I was done with everything on my bento except my beef portion,
I ate the beef plus gravy like some kind of voracious monster I guess.
because xianghui was like saying : BRENDA, YOU ARE SO THIRSTY that you wanna drink the beef gravy. COME COME, I buy you soup.
I said : NO NEED LA, just that I like the gravy, its nice lo.
then guanlim tasted. he also agreed.
everyone thought I was like a hungry ghost.
Yeah, they got a part right that I am a ghost, but not that HUNGRY.
they never seeeeeee the monster in meee yet :P

hahahaha, after eating, then go homee lo.
now, I am here, taking my own sweet time. not studying again.
wonder I will regret if I dont study.
hmmm, I also dont know.

MEN IN SUIT = LOVE! <3

byebyeee! time for sfront :D

2008-05-27T01:40:00.002+08:00

I thought it over.
and I seee what you mean.
I realised that.
I do not even fit to be your friend,
with my super-overly-extremely pessimistic mind I have.
I know that you are nice.
I know that you are trying very hard to get where you want to get to.
but when I said, no one can, means no one can.
I know you want me to know that there is something else in life.
I also know it myself. but I cant seem to touch it.
or should I say, my hands are just reluctant to, even if my spirit want it alot.
thanks e______d .
You must be nice in people's eyes.
but somehow, I cant see it how others see it.

I apologise for whatever I have said or done.
If you know who you are. please accept it.

2008-05-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

hellloo!
sunday it is.
tmr is public holiday..
Tuesday is telematch..
I am sick, sooo sick that I am having headache while I am blogging.
I need MC.. I wanna skip sch.
argh, if not for guanhao's and meiyi's help ytd,
I wouldnt been able to finish up OBC project.
Another project by this week again ..
CATS. and I am like meeting the girls tmr..
I am seriously not creative. I dont see how I can be.
I am stoning.
I wanna see doctor.
I feel horrible.
I wanna reset life.
let me go.

2008-05-14T22:17:00.003+08:00

hello,
to my 101th post! :D
just came back from harmonica troupe! (:
mannnn, sure tough ah.
but I will learn it FOR SURE. :D

MAIN TOPIC : NEWS - SUMMER TIME PV!
OMGGG!! <3
I CAN FAINT NOW.
ITS LIKE...... OMG
YAMAPI LOOKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE.
LIKE SOME GIRL! kyaaa!
SHIGE LOOKS DARNNNNNN GOOD LOOKING.
TEGOSHI LOOKS DARNNN GOOD TOO!
OMGGGG! cannot take my eyes off them in the PV.
mannnnn! CURRENTLY FANGIRLING!
IF THERE IS ONE GIRLISH ACTIVITY I HAVE,
that would be fangirling! (:
AS GH [ a guy ] HAD SAID,
YAMAPI is between handsome and men's beauty and cool.
GUYFRIENDS, STOP LYING TO YOURSELF,
AND ADMIT THAT YAMAPI IS DEFINITELY LOVE! :D
meh, TO ME, YAMAPI = LOVE!
Stop making me melt, seriously!
You should get yourself a girlfriend and break the rules.
BUT DONT GO GET SOME RANDOM GIRL.
I wanna meet youuuuu, I HOPE I CAN! :(
I also want to meet YAMADA RYOUSUKE! <3
He is darn kakoii in Tantei Gakuen Q!!
waaaaaaaaaa! I am in love with yamapi !
You always keep me addicted to you, no matter what happens!
MAY it be secksay or innocent,
YOUUUU are just my drug. :D

SUMMER TIME, my new over-repeated song! (:
my obsession!
my new emotions to NEWS! :DD

2008-05-09T17:54:00.003+08:00

wooooo! hello!
its already four weeks in NP.
but it felt like only 1 week.
there is so much i want to ask my classmates.
however,i will always hold back.
otherwise, i would talk like some rocket. lmao.
hmmm, why am I feeling so emo. rofl.
ah nevermind!

TODAY!
Reach sch about 9.58 for EM2.
then came out of my papa's car,
saw guanlim waiting outside lecture theatre.
and... meiyi was late ~
because she had to get calculator from victor.
lessons started after she arrived,
learned DIFFERENTIATION OF LN! :D
Oh, i love that chapter. LN is the best! <3
about 15 minutes before the upcoming test during the second hour of lecture,
I started to panic like shit.
man, LAST NIGHT, I SERIOUSLY go practice the common test paper.
THEN, FIRST QUESTION ALREADY CANNOT DO.
SERIOUSLY NO HOPE LA. >_>
I was like thinking, this test, can go fly kite already.
Pon the test has no difference from flunking the test.
FLUNK THE TEST LA. sian .
get the test questions,
then I do the questions continuously without a single tinge of hesitation.
Before i knew it, i finished up all the questions. >_>
and I wasnt conscious of what I am doing.
STUDY SO HARD FOR EM2 LAST NIGHT.
DISREGARD TODAY'S ELECTROTECH TEST. >_>
Talking about electrotech test,
I also could do it, and with the thought of SURE-DIE/SURE-FLUNK paper.
zzzzzzzzz. whats up with me man .
Is this some kind of after effect of studying in SMSS?
I keep thinking I would fail.
IF I FAIL, I CANNOT CATCH UP WITH XINNN
XINNNNN IS MY NEW TARGET. :D

ITS 6.13.
I BETTER DO CATS PROJECT.
FINISH IT UP.
AND THE TIDE WILL BE OFFICIALLY OVER! :DD
woooots!

BYEBYE PEOPLE!
TAKE CARE! :)

Soaked in painful tears,
ripped my soul into pieces.
please take away your hand,
for I dont want to leave a piercing mark in your life.
dont take me away,
I want to stay here.
It is where I belong.
A world with darkness and black-ness.
dont use your smile as your light,
please... I want to keep my world dark.
for darkness is my oxygen.

2008-04-30T15:00:00.006+08:00

hellllloooooooo! :D

Currently listening : Okaeri ; Ayaka! <3

YES! its meeee! [ ok, thats lame! ]
TODAY is a wednesday! [ yes, its obvious ]
I ended school at 12pm! [ wow, thats a new thing! (: ]
I only have S&W and the FREAKY CATS. :D
ALL in the morning.
OKKK, to start off with, S&W, i thought i was like really late.
because I dint see anyone crowding in the gym.
BUT LUCKILY the instructor walked forward to me,
" You signed up already? havent, then sign here. "

WOAHHHH, HENG !
I thought I am lateee, or is either the instructor dont even bother!
hahahahaha! sooo, during S&W,
just that normal gym exercises like running, lifting your shoulders and etc.
soooo, after that its CATS,
and... wow. I cant believe I have to face this teacher for 2 years plus.
his smiles are sooo "hurtful".
its like, he is trying to "shoot" us with hidden meanings.
VERY sarcastic smile, to me.
Wonder if I am just too sensitive or what.
But if I ever hear or see this teacher name, I will cringe at that name.
HE IS OFFICIALLY SCARY to me.
I better do his homework ... rofl.
yes, and CATS ended with some discussion on creativity.

now I am at home, waiting for mr emokid to reply me.
because he is watching his ironman!
and... I am waiting for mr gh to come online.
soooooo, for now, i am bored.
watched absolute boyfriend episode 2!
[ YESYES! I LOVE THE ENDING THEME! <3>
finished reading Zettai Kareshi aka Absolute Boyfriend manga.
yes, super touched.
If only you were to find someone who solely exists for you,
If only your other party were to trust and not suspect you,
If only your other party will protect you unconditionally,
If only your other party will always always give in to you,
If only your partner do not mind being dumped as long as you are loved,
If only your partner never find you boring after a long period of time,
true love will definitely be found.
guess this is super impossible.
This is only a job for a robot. (:
I WANT TO ORDER NIGHTLY SERIES 01!!
I WANT TO ORDER NIGHT TENJOU!
KRONO HEAVENS, WHERE IS YOUR COMPANY.
roflmao.
Absolute boyfriend is the best manga in expressing those true, pure and hardfelt feelings in which the person will never hesitate to show.
PLEASE READ YOUNG LADIES! its gooodddd :D
Guys can just... err... dont read. rofl.

alrighty, time for bed :D
nights though its afternoon.

byeeeeeeeeeeeee! Soushi-kun! let me dream of you. ^^

I want a zettai kareshi.
truly want to have one.
I might as well daydream. :D
such a kanpekki kareshi,
dont ever dream or think that you could meet him in real life.
The cruel truth is, no one solely exists for you and your preferences.
everyone exists because of one reason,
to show other humans their distinctive mix of personalities and characteristics.
I used to believe in one person in this world who exists to take care of me,
but this will never come true,
for the distance gap will be long.
love during the jap feudal era, was pronounced as sadness.
maybe love takes root when sadness sets in? O_o

2008-04-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

heeya people.
its already been a week plus since sch started.
If you know me in my class, I am known as hamtaro.
and.. emokid took this opportunity to call me taro-chan.
the name is so cute-sie woot-sie! but I AINT cute-sie woot-sie!
And..... why do you resemble like a hamster. rawr.
wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing.
anyway, I dont feel like recap-ing what I have done during class.
because most probably, its funny to me, but not to youuu blog jump-ers. ;D
All I can say for the period is, class is sweet and great. :D

currently listening - Realize ; Colbie Calliat.
song lyrics may seem to be simple yet light-hearted.
but true love can be that simple and very complicated.
as what the lyrics had said, if we could feel it at the same time,
it would be great.
however, if we have missed out on each other,
things will never be the same as before.
In love, I think I cant close one eye on this factor : timing.
Timing is really important and.. even could help you even
on the way to engagements and marriages.
but is love really mostly all about timing?
If it is, its gonna be terribly sad and makes us humans regretful.
Suddenly, I feel love isnt in our mankind's control.
I dont want love to be just timing.
If its only based on timing, its gonna create more problems.
I am refering to problems like :
girl is sad, guy goes over to girl, supposedly its time for the guy to smoke a cigar, but he chooses to go over to the girl, and the girl doesnt have an inkling that it is his smoking session. This way, the habit of this guy is being kept from the girl who hates guys who smokes.
I think.. why guys/girls are being dumped are mostly because on this factor, Timing.
As love transcends through time,
will the definition of love ever change ?
I hope someone starts a revolution on it.
I dont want to witness another breakup/rejection due to timing factor.
its really very depressing.
please protect the people from getting hurt.
A broken heart, even if its mended, it will never be new again.
however, for those who are hurt,
dont try your best to forget your ex.
because to forget, is to stop evolving.
thats basically the reason why most people recover and become stronger as they been through many obstacles. :D

ok, i talked too much.
thats what I am basically thinking as I go pass my boring moments. :D
alright ciaos, better get to bed for sch! (:
byeeeeeeeeeeeee!

A last dance.
The last happiest laughter.
A last time seeing you.
I wouldnt want that. ;D
I will smile and laugh it hard through this period. :D

2008-04-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

helllllooo minnnaa-san! :D
TODAY is another school day!
and.... this time round.
The LSCT board ah, organised some game called AMAZING RACE *ahem*
okies la, the game. just that. under the sun alot.
And i think i got sunburn. WOOTS. SKIN PEELING. ;(
The amazing race made us travel from :
Ngee Ann LSCT - Sports Complex - Bukit Timah Hill - Sunset way - Field Opposite New Town Sec - LSCT.
this amazing race really shows who are sporty [ not spoty ].
I seriously feel bad for pulling down my team because of my lack of stamina.
But I gladly appreciate the efforts in encouraging me to walk and run further.
breaking away from my boundaries.
ALL thanks to : Meiyi, Jovian, Benel, Theingi, Victor and Edward.
Thank you very much and apologises for any troubles that I have caused during the race.
Nice race we had there. glad that my class are quite ON people.

AND THEN.
GO HOME, MR EMOKID WANTED ME TO CALL HIM.
and EMOKID IS EVIL. ok. random.

BRAIN IS ROTTING. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2008-04-14T19:03:00.003+08:00

helllooooo!
I think my blog is getting deserted by the day.
ah, being random! (:
anyway, FIRST DAY OF SCH!
My course was being split into 6 classes.
I was assigned to A03 class. pretty cool because :
TMR, THERE ISNT SCHOOL. = dont have to go sch at all.
woots. I am luccckkyy! way lucky this time. (:
but today... is really unexpected.
its like 8.20am, going into the lecture theatre,
I received an unknown call.
and, what the hell, it was andrew from my LSCT camp.
however, he dint really seeee me in the LT until I waved at him.
ah, random. :/
anyway, the orientation for my courseee started off boring.
like, people coming in to talk. " talking blah blah, singapore is giving more jobs.."
then, breaaak, then LSCT lab tour.
I saw Jason and Yuxian ON THE WAY.
I was omg. why are they here? O_O
and, yes, coming back to the tour, obviously, the faculty is trying their best to impress us with their cool equipments and gagdets.
the equipments are not too bad, but why is the practical rooms so small ?
GOOD THING IS, ITS AIR-CONDITIONED. LOLS! xD
along the tour, got to know my new classmates..
because of my mental block that I have been currently cultivating since O level ended,
I have been forgetting their names,
and keep asking them time and time again.
its darn embarassing! oh. BUT AT LEAST I REMEMBERED MY TEACHER NAMME.
Or maybe not. >_>
He is one cute teacher who is my mentor.
SUPER CUTE, LIKE SOME FUSION CHARACTERISTICS OF A MOUSE AND A PENGUIN. :D
and... can seeee, he isss really kind and adorabbleeee!
I am so glaad that I have a teacher like him.. its like another mr lee [ chi teacher ]. :D
so yes, because this week is orientation week for me,
we had some games going on today,
like some ChemE car game..
using basic chemical reaction to propel the car forward...
this particular game actually made me realise that...
O-M-G. these people are smart shit. like uber smart.
like super analytical. its like.. what i am lacking la.
ssiiiaaaannnn, I got a feeling that i would end up last in class.
sigh, why am I so lucky? >_>
lecture notes to collect and buy..
textbook to buy..
must walk around sch to collect it. :/

but who cares for now?
No sch tmr, I SHALL ENJOY IT. :D
I shall learn japanese on my own, before sept/oct comes. (:
jya ne! ;D

2008-04-13T16:59:00.003+08:00

YESYES,
I hear the upcoming sounds of
" HELLO! whats your name? ".
Its the start of school tmr, officially.
And... I feel like dragging my two gigantic feet to school.
Okay. TODAY. is.. like death note..
I am trying to get my orientation before term starts.
got a feeling everything will suck, and i will mug like shit.
ok. THIS IS SO... OMG.
I need to buy a textbook.
ok, i am so freaking out now. freaking out like hell.
and. THANK GOD. i dont have to think of what to wear tmr.
tatas everyone.

2008-04-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

omg, you are so adorable.
you are so cute!
you are so funny!
you are daaaaaaaarrrnnn nice!
mannn, I wanna stay longer in this time period.
how I wish I was this happy everyday.
its gonna be a long ride.
definitely a gift from the heavens.
:D

2008-04-05T16:51:00.002+08:00

mwahahahaha!
This is the new blogskin! :D
enjoy and embrace it!
mannn, i love this drama alot.
yamapi - nobuta - shuji - mariko. <3
I hope you guys could give some comments on this blogskin of mine.
Like, out of 10, how much does this blogskin deserves?
thank you very much~

SEEE you soon! :D

2008-03-31T14:29:00.002+08:00

ah, hello.
its time for new clothes, blog!
made for you a new blogskin. (:
hmmm, its something to do with nobuta and company.. :D
just that I need to do some blog coding and stuff.
spend like 4 hours doing this.
wonder if it turns out great. :/
otanoshimini! :D

bbyes peopleeee.
2 more days to camp!

2008-03-25T20:52:00.003+08:00

I came here,
to express my regret.
You will always be my regret in my life, no matter what happens.
I had to keep my lips sealed.
Now that things have changed,
I had to change to stay aloof.
Its not the end, but the beginning of living a life with you as my regret.
Every single happiness I received,
I will think of you for you will make me feel fuller.
Every single glimpse of sadness I received,
I will think of you for your presence will comfort me.
No matter how bad things are,
nothing is as bad as my regret which is you.
I am not the least happy or sad.
You said, getting emotional wont make things better,
so why not keep relationships as peaceful as possible?
Your words are like the sea waves washing against the iron thick poles,
slowly corroding the metal,
and the corroded metal has no choice,
but to disappear into the depths of the sea.
you are that powerful.
you never knew this fact.
I am not intending to tell you.
I am glad you never read my blog.
behind every word I tell you,
there is always a tinge of hesitation.
I have never handle such a tedious life before.
You shown me the way,
but I will carry this regret for I dont blame you for anything.
Really, thanks for everything especially for not leaving me alone.
I always thought brainwashing would be a scary and lonely thing.
however, to be brainwashed by you,
I gained a sense of security and naive-ness.
Its queer how things seems to be so opposite when you are around.
You are always on my mind, for this lifetime.

confession done on 25th march-
will be held closely to the owner's heart.

2008-03-23T21:21:00.002+08:00

omg.
what the hell is wrong with friendster.
I cant even get inside.
stupid server or proxy.
zzzz, I want to delete this friendster acccc!
I shall delete every source of information about me excluding this blog.
Mehhhh, man. friendster.
you better get yourself up, or I will bust your brains off.
seriously, make it work.
I dont wanna get crazy over a stupid website.
ah, do it tmr then. stupid friendster.
love you lappy! :D
you are so sleek and secksay~
*hugs*

Insane I am, i know I am.
besides, after hols, i cant be insane anymore.
bye people.

2008-03-23T14:52:00.002+08:00

Happpyyy EASTER!
its the day, when Jesus has been resurrected! ^_^
meeehhhh~
sigh, dint manage to go church today.
sigh... I wonder what I should do.

Its a sunday. normal sunday.
where all gaming starts.
however, I start off with blogging. O_O
wanted to blog about yesterday.
with the crazy phone call I received from miss abigail.
She... is... one... hell.... of.... a student. lol. :P
I bet she is the only human who makes a mistake once, and makes other 3 different mistakes in a one day.
maaaannn, is making a phone call to an unknown person that difficult?!
Its not like the person would recognise your voice when you go for cammmpp!
abigail making phone call = going for O level exams.
I had to wish her good luck to her with this particular phone call with this guy!
lols, I dont know. ABIGAIL, you are not abnormal.
You are just. a human that is peculiar.
bet that quality of yours, would definitely stand out in your course. :P
I will be waiting for your... news on guys. HAHAHA.
well, if you get hooked onto one, I shall fulfil my promise that was made to you.
Then I would get so muuucchhh ffunnn. xD
[ Readers, do not think "anything else". Its not like what you think. ]

Mehhhh, I need some animes to watch.
I am gonna finish up bokura ga ita.
[ love yano&nanami ^_^ ]
quite a..... now-generation kind of love.
hot feelings are being expressed.
quite a cool romance anime.

I feeeelll liikkeee deleting thisss blooggg.
or just leave it alone. its like gaming is my everything.
argh, nevermind. think it over, baobao.

byebye people, and happpyyy Easter again~

2008-03-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

wootsie!
I bought my newwwww lapppyyy!
heh! love fujitsu. :P
my computer looks secksay!
I am in love with it. :D
whats even better is, the promoter who sold it to me,
was sooooooooo good looking!
mannn, my mom said, he is a good choice. LOL.
too bad, he graduated from ngee ann, this year.
but it seems that.. ngee ann.. is running out of pretty and handsome people. o.o
I mean.. I dont see these people hanging around in school.. o.o
and i thought ngee ann produces pretty and smart ass people.
Thats WHY I FEEL I SHOULDNT GO INTO THIS SCHOOL.
MAAAANNN! This school life, shall be a tough one to cross.
Might have to give up on my restrictions!
which is like... NO WAY FOR THAT PAST 17 YEARS.
oh wait. better get to sch, to hand in the camp form.
see ya minna~ ^_^

2008-03-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

heyaaa!
whats up people!
come by to blog a little of my tin-sie win-sie bit of my life! :P
hahaha, joking!
its just some thoughts of my current-com-slack-rest life...
wondering if the games i have been playing have been creating clouds or mist to make the sight of life less clearer..
I have been receiving alot of ... surprising information about myself..
which is ... rather weird or queer because.. shouldnt I know info about myself ?
I have never thought.. i have changed in any way...
Definitely, in me... there is something stirring .. but is it my heart or am i just imagining things ?
Wonder why people say I do love you alot, but deep inside.. I wonder what are you really ?
I dint even stop... to even think what are you to me.
I just happily go with the days when you are around like how friends are!
Am I really feeling different ? Have I really changed ?
I know my physical weight definitely changed.. but my personality?
How could it be that my friends are talking rubbish when there are like 10 people telling me that I am in love with you?!
As in these 10 friends dont even know each other so well.. they wouldnt team up and give me a lie right?!
How come I just cannot see it?!
If the feeling of love is like this, then....
MY 4 IDOLS I LOVE IS NOT LOVE?!?!
I am so bloody confused, not only by what my friends said.
but also what i am feeling towards you.
This is so ... shit!
Its no fun when you dont even know your own feelings.

To think of you. when i was watching The Leap Years.
To cry hysterically when i was thinking of you during the movie.

However, one thing i know is. you are definitely someone I need in my life.

SIGH, this must be one of my MOST CONFUSING CONFESSIONS.
bbyees~

another day around the computer. ^^

2008-02-18T13:46:00.002+08:00

woohooo peopleee!
i am going back to gunz!
it was a tough decision to go back to gunz..
especially when gunz was the cause of my ex-com's death.
Probably i am playing gunz, because i want
to escape reality. to escape troubles.
but who cares! I, 16 years old. have to learn how to enjoy. *sways*

zzzz.. games definitely gave me frequent mental blocks.
it sometimes get on my nerves. [ most of the time, baoyi. ]
hahahah.
at least i dont behave like some people around me.
accuse people hack, glitch because they lose in the game?
seriously, i just feel some singaporeans are just sore losers.
so what if you lose, just admit you lose. you dont have to go to the extent to swear at people?!
believe me, its easy to know who are singaporeans in this SF game.
those who swears hokkien vulgar. seriously, is pissing me off.
I saw that bloody guy behind you and shot you dead, and you could just pass it off with a " oh, a glitcher / a lagger / a tapper " remark.
how shameful are these people. dont know where their positions are.

ah, 1.57pm. lets watch Yamada Tarou Monogatari!
while waiting for xin to finish his role as a good bro.
seriously, i just think i am a bad sister. but who cares.
i have a bad brother too. hahaha.
sseee yyaaaa ppeeeeooopppllleeee!
_____________________________________________

alrighty! loves xin, chocolate, abigail and andrea! <3
and thanks to chocolate, for that particular confession! ((:

2008-02-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

hard to breathe .
mind is in a mess .
saw something that really made me worried .
he is going to make his move .
teardrops on my guitar .
its happening .
am i ready ?

2008-01-24T11:55:00.000+08:00

argh. argh ..
in a few hours..
i will be beheaded..
omgg. why do the markers mark at such a fast rate?!
zzz .
omgggg. I dont know what to do.
I wake up at 10am in the morning. [ usual timing : 12.30pm ]
zzz. and i felt my heart beating super fast.
its as though my heart was being grasped.
it was super hard to breathe .
omg... WHY A THURSDAY?!
omg.. somemore its the day when bleach is out..
zzzzzz . I wont take any calls or anything like that.
any questions regarding O levels, NO CALLING UP.
i wont pick up at all . if too much calls, i will OFF my phone.
zzz, i wonder if people could see this before 2pm..
damn it man. In SoldierFront, i cant even properly shoot.
i cant even think right.
I think i am stressed like shit .
unlike chocolate. he has DPA. so no worries..
zzzzzzz . I am currently experiencing tremendous pressure.
I have been traumatised ever since the start of this week.
the feeling to open the envelope.
OMGGGGGGGGG. I THINK I WILL FAINT .
YAMAPI dint calm my nerves down.
MATSUMOTO JUN dint calm my nerves down.
I have been hopping around the house.
zzzzzz . i am doing crazy things like a girl.
zzzzzzzzz . this sucks man.
OMGGGGGGGG. in the afternoon, what should i do.
i feel anytime i can be brought into the A & E emergency.
zzzzz. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
AM I DEAD. CAN I GO DIE NOW.
omg. omgomgomg.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
argh, stupid la. i think i go SF and calm myself down.

All the best to all who is receiving their results today. omggg. MAKE ME MORE STRESSED. BYEBYE.

2007-12-27T15:19:00.000+08:00

hellloo peopleee! :D
MERRY XMAS! (:
though it is a late greeting,
but it is better than i never greet at all. xP
excuses, baoyi! >_>

Today is the last day!
last day!
last day of what? o.O
LAST DAY OF DOING HOUSEWORK! XD
I dread doing housework man.
Can you imagine, a computer freak like me,
BEING CALLED 5 TIMES CONSTANTLY to take this. do that ?
omg, to me, it is irritating and infuriating.
wash these and that. omgs. i hate it.
So, defintely, i will become a career-woman. HAHAHA.
To escape the HORRORS of housework. HAHA.
At least i will be able to sit in the office, with cool air brushed against my face, with my eyes staring at the com. HAHAHA.
I'm in love with it. :D

fyi, i love yamapi. THOUGH my msn DP. is wu zun,
but i dont really like wu zun now. i find him a bit. too perfect a guy.
yamapi, at least, he has flaws. (:
Perfect guy may not be the best guy on Earth.
HAHAHAHA.

okay. thats so random. lets watch yamapi's drama again!
KUROSAGI. hahaha, to re-live the passion of swindling. :DD

sayonara peepsss. <3

2007-12-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

omg! most of my friends are asking me to revive my blog.

WHEN I TOLD THEM ITS DEAD.

lolss! OKAY.

TO BEGIN WITH.

OVER WITH EXAMS !

boooo! XD
Today went out with my family.
omggggggggggg.
i cant believe i am wearing girly clothes.
omg. my mom bought this girl clothings for me.
AM I GONNA TURN TO A GIRL.
COMPLETE GIRL?!
omg. Okay, die.
DIE. YAMAPI.
I WANT YOU. COME TO ME. :P
I want someone else too. :P
heehee. love ya xin. <3
wooosshh. replying to tags :

andrea : thanks for being my hardcore fan! lmao! love you lots! :D you are my forever shuai girlfriend. :P. MY SWEET OLD WITCH, LMAO. xD

Denise : HELLO! imma, not doing well. HAHA. lost track of time man.

SiJue : HELLO! boo! Life is. GETTING BETTER. XD

Andy : omg, WHO ARE YOU?! what is your msn? AND DO I KNOW YOU? LOL. sorry if i broke your heart, dude. LMAO.

Felicia : HELLO! i am obviously enjoying my hols until i forget what day is today. LOL. seriously lost track of time. ONE DAY jus passes like. eating one meal like that.

Everyone : THANK YOU PEOPLE. for still posting msgs. I feel touched! ((:

i love you, xinquan. <3

2007-07-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

mwahaha! I am back.
feeling much better!
Probably its the NOBUTA power! xD
I have WATCHED NOBUTA WO PRODUCE.
I cried and cried. how sentimental. :/
Now I understand why Junel likes Yamapi. (:
and I agree with her too. :D
YAMAPI. daisuki! <3
His role in NWP is Kusano Akira.
i love the way he clings onto Shuji [ Kamenashi Kazuya ],
even when he is drunk. ~
Thats not all.
He appears to be drunk after DRINKING SOY MILK. *wow*
I love him. he goes KON-KON, NOBUTA POWER and AKIRA SHOCK.
I dont think i love only akira's character and not yamapi.
I really love yamapi, especially his voice. (:
I WILL BUY THE DVD of NWP!
This show has actually inspired or should I say, enlightened me.
There is real friendship that exist in this world.
obviously, its not happening to me now.
But, it will be coming soon, sodayo neh? (:

Next J drama, Japanese version of Hana Kimi.
OH YA, the lead actress in JapHK is also the lead actress in NWP.
She is really very pretty.
Coming back to the topic, I think the guy who is acting Sano, is WAY OFF.
I mean his face is WAY OFF. compared to wuzun. xP
Thats why, Nakatsu stands out. ^^
I've gotta admit it,
I love the way he acts, most probably better than Jiro.
[ PLEASE, SPARE ME JIRO'S FANS ]
JapHK is really fast. is like much faster compared to TwHK.
different storyline, different casts, different expectations. :D

I love YAMAPI, my new love.
demo, I still love you, wuchun, L and Fuji.
As of now, please get ready your tissues when I post this picture :

Ciaos. (:

2007-07-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

helloo!
its been long, yeah? >_<
I am still sick,
for people who are still wondering why I am missing in action..

Been at home.. sleeping, eating, sleeping, eating.
Eating dilute porridge,
was like torture.
but of course it is edible. (:

Probably because of the free time I am currently having,
I have been thinking much.
well, it is not that SPECIAL.
I thought of my school, my social status and my family.
the one that strike me most is probably when I am thinking about my school.

At first, when I came into SMSS,
I have an impression that everyone will look down on me.
well, it was true, even until now.
Until today,
I think I am acknowledged as someone who can keep the fire going during outdoor cooking.
I sound pathetic, huh ?
First year of school, I have limited friends.
and I thought, I could get more friends as I go on.
However, I am wrong.
Second year of school, I am glad that my classmates started to accept me.
But, they accepted me as the lousiest in class.
I feel that I lose all credibility.
The feeling that I had experienced previously in GRSS,
The credibility that I had experienced in GRSS,
may not happen in SMSS.
No one believes in teh answer I say.
No one thinks that my answer will ever be correct.
I dont know whether to be GLAD or to be dejected.
No one likes to be the lousiest in the elite schools, right?
Probably, its my behaviour that SMSS students cannot relate with me.
Even if these problems are gone,
there will still be the gap,
The gap which will be the barrier of me and SMSS classmates.
I spend less time in SMSS, experienced little of SMSS.

I guess, the only real friends I do have are Andrea and Abigail.
I am so pathetic, compared to _______ .

On the other hand, my life do not just consist my friends,
but also my kins, yeah?
As a teenager, I should always look on the bright side of life, right? ^^
Otherwise, I would grow more white hair. xD
Truly, being ignorant, is a blessing in disguise.

Ciaos, my fellow listeners. (:

2007-06-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa! (:
YES. today is THE DAY.
wait, to be exact, its no-life day?
Lmao. SCHOOL STARTS.
and I cant wake up at 1pm as per 'normal'.
Start of school,
and i received a rather violent pinch specially by andrea?
perhaps it is her way of greeting? -joking. :P
well, she was just particularly excited to have Mr Daniel as our P.E teacher.
And yes, we started off with laoshi's period.
what the hell, i had a damn good time,
just by looking at the PHOTO ALBUM of FLH. (:
okay, enough of my craziness, before you get bored.
Yesss! and its P.E.
and I AM SERIOUSLY BLUR.
my gosh, how can I give the wrong answer to P.E teacher?
its like... I am stupid. >_>

Recess - sucked.
Omg, the fishball noodles are like...
is this even fishball noodles?
Stick to western! (:

Just check out the new video I put!
its the funny version of Public Affair - Jessica Simpsons.
By two chinese guys who are art students?
yess! i love them.
basically, if I want to be the best comedian,
I would pick them as one of my idols. (:
enjoy people, it does rock,
if you have the word 'lame' in your dictionary. :D

2007-06-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

heeellllooooo!!
Its the third week of holidays!
yes! I AM ESPECIALLY HAPPY TODAY!
not going to tell you the reason~

I have been spending at home,
listening to Daniel and Young. (:
They are seriously lame. but i love it!
Whenever I listen to them,
somehow, I found myself very comfortable.
The feeling I had was rather different,
compared to when I was relaxed.
Maybe my social environment collides with my personality.
I dont have stiff shoulders anymore.
I dont have headaches.
Its like. OMG. I WANT TO BE IN 98.7 now!
okay, nevermind, too hyped up. =x

YES, new anime to introduce!
Akazukin Chacha!
The fighting between the evil and the good is really dull.
but the jokes are.... FUNNY.
If you are watching, you have to look out for Riiya!
His puns are.. absolutely RIDICULOUS.
and you can never imagine, the main character is someone that is so dim-witted, YET can beat the EVIL LORD.
this anime is more of Humourous than of crime fighting.
This anime is quite old. but character drawings are really cute!
maybe those people who knows the CHANNEL I that ceased transmission,
the anime starts on weekdays, 6pm..
I watched this when i was young. But too bad, it was in english dubbed.
THEREFORE, you must watch the ANIME SUBBED.
which means YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO JAPANESE to understand the PUNS!
*giggles*

Anybody gonna watch Fantastic Four?
if you are, bring me along?
I am bored at home.
I keep sleeping and sleeping and watching teevee, and sleeping and sleeping.
so please take me out!

its the end!
yeepppiiiee!
I put an end to this messy relationship.
We shall not meet.
I shall forget you.
I am just so happy to get this load out of my chest.
WHEEE! happy! <3
I am REALLY HAPPY. :D

2007-06-08T15:51:00.001+08:00

boo hoo!
LAST DAY of school. (:
I wouldnt actually say it is the last day..
because i will still have to study like shit. >_>
but its life, aint it ?
aww, so rehearsed. i understand what does andrea means when she said i sounded rehearsed.

Came back home with a smile.
and started singing on the way back home.
it is really unusual to sing in such a big area.
Usually, i would stop humming the song, when people walked past me.
however, i did something different.
I sang with two persons behind me,
yet i wasnt even conscious of how i felt..
when my maid opened the door for me,
she asked, " why are you so happy ? you are even singing! good mood ah? "
I replied, " did i sing? NO LA. crazy. "
then i realise, i dint stop singing since i came back home.
I soliloquized, wow, did i just sang? Did i embarass myself?
how interesting. i did sing without myself knowing.

After those thoughts that rants in my head,
I went to my living room, watched High School Musical.
To waste my time through. how bad could I be?
anyway, coming back,
seen stephanie's tag, seen her blog,
wow, she is as pretty as usual.
however, she came across some problems.
well, really want to catch up with her. (:
but thats if i still have her handphone number.
Stephanie, sms me your number, My NUMBER is still the same. :D

Uhm, how should I spend my day?
so bored. Shall I play more neopets to escape?
Shall I sing more songs to forget ?
Shall I listen more songs to remember?
Shall I sleep my way through my contradiction?
maybe i should.

2007-06-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

omg. STUPID person.
Who the hell are you to impersonate someone that is so damn cool?
OMG. you are insulting my favourite person.
OMG. GET LOST LA.
You are not even fit to be that coolest person.
OMG. how absurd can this be. >_>
The uncool, wants to be cool. by impersonating.
Thats call inmature.
A word of advice : HAVE YOUR OWN STYLE.
what an insult to my fav. ):
made me so mad! :X

Wheee whooo!
TODAY, A maths ended early.
As usual, Chemistry practical is so exciting.
I just love the changing colours of chemicals. <3
SPRINGCLEANING. what i dread most.
[ the dust is still in my eyes. how uncomfortable.]
watched POT when i reached home.

WAAAHHHHSSS! POT nationals rocks!
omg. i love the fourth counter!
waaaa! FUJI = genius. love him(:
In POT, i love FUJI. haha. he rocks!
SYUUSUKE FUJI, one of my favs.
well, dont worry L, i still love you. (:

2007-06-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

its a friday..
maybe an ordinary one.
or perhaps the worst friday i ever had.
friday is supposedly to make me happy.
but after seeing something,
I guess. I really have to do something to myself.
Maybe humans are taking things for granted afterall.
I wonder whats my purpose of living in this world.
I wonder if my existence was just an extra one.
Am I supposed to come to the world to experience the pain myself?
Is my life just another boring case?
Am I thinking too much? or Is it the case?
Why cant I just get over it..
My friends who pass by this blog could be thinking :
She's pathetic. Just because a setback by the past, she couldnt move on.
Am I really pathetic? Am I too sensitive?
My life is just so painful to carry on.
Maybe it is not painful under other people's 'painful' scale.
I dont know. I am just...
Just one phrase from the msn nick,
could actually MAKE me so miserable.
WHAT THE HELL ARE THINKING, baoyi?!
YOU ARE REALLY THE MOST PATHETIC SHIT in this BLOODY DAMN WORLD.
I shall stop the self-talking and immerse myself in depression.

2007-05-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

I am so fed up with this person.
HOW COULD DO SUCH A THING!
OMG. somehow, I want to confront you and GIVE YOU THREE TIGHT SLAPS.
my ______ is so GOOD TOWARDS you.
AND this is what ______ gets ?
ARENT YOU TOO CRUEL TO ________?!
You wasted _____ 's life, everything.
YET YOU LEAVE _____ alone, and stead with another person.
I really want to see how THE BLOODY HELL YOU LOOK LIKE.
IF I REALLY EVER HAPPEN TO SEE YOUR PICTURE,
I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN, and SLAP YOU THREE TIMES. I AM SERIOUS.
Although you guys cannot work it out,
but why cant you just wait another month before you start another one?!
HAIYA, I hope I get this information right.
If I am right,
I cant stand ____ being like that. Stand up and REALISE, ____ !
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, SO WAKE UP!
Argh, this problem flares me up. DAMN ANGRY LA! ://
*POURS COLD WATER*

I feel better! (:
KISS OF LIFE IS SO NICE!
ANDREA, ANDREA! Its the love revolution's song!
BY KEN HIRAI! <3
Waaaa! he looks so westernised!
DOESNT EVEN LOOK LIKE A JAPANESE!
I put the MV of Kiss Of Life in my blog.
PLEASE CHECK IT OUT! its damn nice. :DD
RATINGS : 5 out of 5 STARS! <3<3

HAHA, just now watched POT live action!
THAT RYOMA is so......
however, SYUUSUKE FUJI and INUI-SENPAI are so.... DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES FROM the real characters!
I do love them this way, rather than the anime.

I AM GONNA WATCH LOVE REVOLUTION!
WHEEE! the JAPANESE SERIAL is ON. (:
love you, WUCHUN and KEN HIRAI! <3<3

2007-05-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

whhheee!
i feel so much happier!
Thanks to Vince, Weeteck and Quan Kor! (:
I dont know why,
but they are damn lame, like me.
lame people clicks. (:
I have such a great time with Vince.
mwahaha, PEOPLE ACCUSED HIM OF CHEATING HIS GIRLFRIEND.
People accused = MEANS he is very good-looking!
Yeah, he is. but not comparable to WUCHUN.
mwahaha! he will kill me if he saw this.
TRUST ME, vince, YOU ARE HANDSOME. (:
hope you and zhou are happily together.
As a best friend of yours,
I feel happy for you! (:

Long 'working' hours. ):

2007-05-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

whhheeee!
I am using the new computer.. ^^
AND FINALLY,
I am seeing something normal in blogger. HA.
I have a recommendation for anime-songs-fanatics! (:
You must must must WATCH the OP theme for BLEACH.
Kon is SO CUTE! DAMN CUTE!
The song is equally nice.=D
Its Alones, by Aqua Timez.
however, the full version of the song is not out yet.
To watch this Video,
Click on the last box of yuki [ White background color, with yuki's dashing look. xP] and you will be able to see the VIDEO OF THE MONTH. :D
I am fully aware that Andrea objects about this song.
therefore, ANDREA, i did not put this video to SPITE YOU okay.
I AM HONEST!
My ratings for Alones : 4.5 STARS! (:

For those people who are Gunz players from NA Gunz,
Please leave your id at my tagboard.
Because i am going back to Gunz. WELL, I must say my skills are RUSTY.
thats why, i need PRO GUNZ sword players to INTENSIFY my training.
HAHA. I want to be the gurl who kicks butt. :D
I SERIOUSLY hope Diego and Vince will see this. but it is a WISHFUL THINKING.

Today was a 3/4 no-life day.
LUCKILY, there were CHEMISTRY lessons and laoshi's blabberings about LIFE.
laoshi was so funny. GOODNESS.
He could even tell us in CHINESE, " I cant let you guys off early, because I told my maid to cook DINNER at 8PM. "
What the hell does it has to do with us? ROFLMAO.
It doesnt link, so THATS WHY ITS FUNNY. ((:
He rocks la, however, I really hope that he will mark our homework with much SERIOUS-NESS.
Chemistry ALSO ROCKS OKAY. (:
We LEARNT ABOUT ESTERS! :DD
TIME FOR A SMALL CHEMISTRY LESSON! :
THE ARTIFICIAL FLAVOURINGS THAT WE EAT.
is a chemical product produced by carboxylic acid and alcohol.
END OF CHEMISTRY LESSON. THANK YOU FOR READING. ^^
I brought the tiger balm to school today,
and Cindy said IT SMELLS LIKE ESTERS.
OMG. Thats hillarious!
After that short period of LAUGHING,
we were asked to apply what we learnt on 3D 'molecules'.
And SHAMAANI raised her voice [ a bit ],
SURPRISINGLY, I went to collect the 3D 'molecules' from Miss Lee.
As I was walking back to my seat,
I was like, WHY DID I TAKE THE BOX?
omg, SHE SOMEHOW MANUPILATED ME. ROFLMAO.
what a dense person I am. OR maybe I was really scared of her.
I couldnt remember why I reacted this way.

About SPIDERMAN 3,
ABIGAIL VIOLENTLY OBJECTS about my low ratings for SPM 3.
well, she thought I ganged up with Amelia Cheah, to make her feel bad.
I TRULY DIDNT. but I just merely asked Amelia Cheah whether she found SPM 3 was good. Her view was on my side, and later Amanda Foo said it was bad too.
Abigail said I could not appreciate the effort that the director and crews had put in. well, she is partly correct. but whatever, we are different people with different personalities anyway.

Thats it for TODAY.
otherwise, before 28 MAY,
I will be staying in school until 5pm.
Hais! pathetic, arent I ? ):

Must must watch the 9pm show. TODAY, its the DIVORCE. The intensity STARTS. ^^

loveya wuchun- !

Sunday - The last day of my unconsciousness.

2007-05-13T14:33:00.000+08:00

wheee hooo!
I seriously love Tank's songs.
I FEEL he is damn talented la.
the music or melody he created the songs he sang,
are just so soothing.
it makes me feel understanding.
well understand what, i also dont know.
but all i know i understand something.
that something I dont know what it is, but its there.

AHHH, how i wished i had the language to express what I am feeling!
Its like damn, ITS DAMN SOOTHING FOR THE SOUL.
but I just dont know how to bring forward this feeling to others.
ENGLISH, rahhs! why communicate in ENGLISH.
ENGLISH is so... COMPLICATED.
you dont know what the right words to say, to really express what you feel.
what about those people who are illiterate?
How do they communicate?
I hope humans could create a language that is
yet easy and " EXPRESS-IBLE ".
English is a language that has to be checked up in the dictionary,
but not close to our humans senses.
DAMN, tongue-tied. :/
I want a language that is so easy that
Humans could communicate through their senses.
FULL STOP!

* SPOLIER FOR SPIDERMAN 3! WARNING! *

Yesterday : WATCHED SPIDERMAN 3!
MY RATING : 2 stars.
Reasons : I am not being mean okay! A two hours plus movie, but yet so draggy. It was all about snatching the girl, Mary Jane, how SPIDERMAN changed,
how the different villains take their turns DEFEAT SPIDERMAN.. It was so boring that Andrea yawned three times loudly in the theatre. She said the theatre was a nice place to sleep in. ROFL. I wanted to give 0 stars only, but because of their effort in doing those sound effects and computer design, thats explains the 2 stars. Well, this is not to stop you from watching. But $9.50 for this show, to me, its not worth it.

*SPOILER FOR SPIDERMAN 3 ENDS*

I went out with Andrea, Abigail and Clarissa.
Poor thing, Shamaani couldnt go. ):
SHAMAANI, GET WELL SOON YEAH! (:
You have to COME BACK TO SCHOOL ON WEDNESDAY!
Coming back to yesterday outing,
ANDREA, her back hair looked like L.
omg, it reminded me of EPISODE 26. WHEN L DIED.
So saddening. I HATE NEAR AND MELLO.
WHY DO THEY HAVE TO REPLACE L!
SICKENING! :/

HAIYA. talking about death note.
I want to remember the feeling of having L in the anime.
gotta watch death note now..

- she's out, with THE DREADFUL FEELING of losing L. ):